Why Can't They Face Me?

Today was a fu*king bad day for me. It had been after my staff (say it) told me that he had been asked to write an agreement about his job. It's not because I don't like his job -not at all, I like him. He's a good young guy- but because he's almost taken my responsibility as it ain't his job. It might be so hard for him. It's really unfair for him. He's just a staff who will do what we've agreed about the dormitory's rules. But me, the top leader in this case, who they should ask to sign any agreement about our job, not him, because it's my responsibility.

I know why some office mates did so for him. They might think he wouldn't report me about it because of my busy days. They're really wrong! They thought they could say something wrong about my job in any meeting where I couldn't attend. They're really wrong! My staffs (say it) will report me everything about our job and what people out there talk about it. But I'm wondering why they can't ask me about it as I will be at school on every Friday or Saturday? Did they think that they could face me without me around? Don't say you're facing someone if he/she couldn't hear your voice. That's what they're doing to me.

Why do they need to say something bad about my work? I didn't take hands for their works, never been interested to see theirs. If i thought there's something wrong with their works because theirs might effect my works, I'd say it forward to them. I won't hide my words and say something bad behind them. It's not my way. What the hell were they thinking about when they did it? Why can't they face me as I'm around them? Because they don't do their works well but I do? That's a shit reason to say something bad about people. They're fu*king rot!

Sorry if I used such bad words here. I don't get mad but I hate people who like playing an unfair game. That's all. They're just such looser in my eyes, not more than it!

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I Hate Chemistry

It's a specific title of my unfinished-book, but here I don't wanna talk about it. You must be wondering as I'm a chemistry teacher but why I title it so? I loved chemistry but less than physic or math when I was at school. I just liked stoichiometry as the calculation part of chemistry field. It includes general mole concepts, buffer calculations, hydrolysis components, and all things of basic calculation in chemistry. Because I loved math so much, no wonder I loved stoichiometry only at young age.

But nowadays I know how to learn easily chemistry. When we wanna learn something new, we should find the key first and then the door will open widely, right? Here are the keys.
First, use your logical math to replace chemistry problems. It's easier then to solve it. For example, it says a student adds a number of mixture of two kinda metals into a HCl solution, the new mixture releases 1 liter of hydrogen gas at rtp, and you must calculate how many grams of each metal. For solving the given problem, you should know which metal will react or if they two will react with HCl solution. If one metal only will react, it will be easier to solve it because you can assume that all 1 liter of hydrogen gas as the product are produced from one reaction only. Hence another one doesn't react with HCl, it doesn't produce hydrogen gas. Base on the given reaction, you can determine the mole number of hydrogen gas and also other substances. Once you've known the number of moles, you can calculate all things by converting the number of moles into the given questions.
If the two metals will react with HCl solution, just think that the hydrogen gas is produced by two reactions between metals and HCl solution. Hence we have two reactions, we need to assume that we have X liter of hydrogen gas from one reaction and (1 - X) liter of hydrogen gas from another one. You further must convert them into the number of moles of each hydrogen. By that way, you can calculate the number of moles of other substances of each reaction. So you can go further to solve the problem.

Second, you must put the problem as it's your daily activity only. For example, when you're asked to prepare 1 liter of potassium chloride solution1 M, put the job as your mommy is asking you to prepare a glass of water with some sugar. You'll run some questions. How sweet is the solution your mum want you to prepare? What do you do first, add water or sugar in the glass? By that way you can go to calculate the number of mass of potassium chloride. Find a specific relation between molarity (as it's asked) and mass (as it's the real thing you have at laboratory). Convert molarity into mass. Then do your job because your mum has been waiting for her water!

Third, put chemistry as a real case in your life. So no other way you may learn chemistry easily and clearly but do experiments as it's impossible to face a hard life if you're just sitting alone in your own emptied-room. For this case, I can't suggest you something as we all have known what kinda laboratory we have at our school. And about how poor laboratories in national schools in our country, we should run this question at the government. I myself don't wanna place you in a fire seat in this case but you can make your comment here freely. It's our space to speak freedom as our foundations had proclaimed our independence day years ago. If there's no something wrong in our country, people should be able to speak freely, right?

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Why Do I Love Axl?

I loved Axl. I love Axl. And I'll love Axl. When he was the most number popular guys in this earth, it ain't something special if you liked or even been in love with him. He was so handsome, rock, famous, sexy, he had a very cute smile, he had extreme-powerful real rock vocal, he could run his fingers on the piano's keyboards and play a romantic song, he could change his face in minutes from a wild rock guy became a pin up-faced young guy, he could jump on the brutal fans, he might fall on stage but kept singing, over all things, he had his own rules.

Women would tattoo their sensitive body space with Axl's smile or just his name or might some words such as 'I love Axl', etc. They would put clothes off for him to show how much they loved him. They would say 'hey Axl, I love you', or so on to show him that they were his big fans. But when he's getting older and loosing his powerful, many big fans had been leaving him. As he's an alcohol-cigarette addicted-person, magazines just reported his assaults. His women also reported him at court to show the world how bad he was as their man. How could the one who loved him do that for him? He might be not a perfect man as he got his bad childhood sexuality from his step father, his women should recover him and take care of him. He might be an anger young man but they should understand his bad past before deciding to take a part in his life. What the hell did those women want from him? What the hell did they concern for? His popularity, his wealth, or his good shape only? What a poor Axl!

I do love Axl not just because he's a great frontman (no need to argue that he is!) but he is a nice one personally. He told the world how an Axl might go wrong when he got people threw him out with the bottles or coins. He just wanna perform them but they put throwing him. It's the hell. I couldn't imagine that I'd do better than what he had been showing us if I did get same life as he had. He did great jobs as a singer, as a young guy, or even as a son. Imagine this, if your father did something bad sexuality for you, would you mention him to the world that he's a great man or you'd like to keep any comment about him just for yourself? And if the world forced you to say a word about him, would you say he's a great father or just say what he did for you? Be honest for yourself and you know that he had done the best he had.

But as you all have your opinion about him today, I do agree with you all. He has come to wrong people to make over his angel face onto a weird one and I do do not like his African-hair style today. I can't lie that he has a little lower range voice today than he had at twenties. But about his voice, I think it's normal because he gets older, doesn't he? Could your parents keep their melodious young voice when they're old? Could your grandpa's face be as cute as his young face? Nobody could against natural rules of getting old, right? We did take that Guns n Roses wouldn't be as rock as it had been if the frontman wasn't Axl. I won't say GnR is just for Axl but... Could you imagine GnR on stage playing 'November Rain' without Axl as the singer? Would you attend an old GnR performance without Axl was among other members? I bet for sure that you would not.

I sufficiently hope Axl would show much better performances comparing with his 2005' performances. He had his golden era and he would keep having such great time. I like 'Better' and I think it's Axl, still. I'm still looking forward the Chinese Democracy great album. Today I still love Axl as much as I had before. He is the best lead rocker for me and still be the one up till now. Nobody can replace him. Nobody.

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My Guys

I'm gonna rank them in order of the most of taking a part in my life today.
The first guy, actually a young guy, is the first guy who I love so much on this planet. He's my beloved son. I had asked him if I could write his name on this paper but he -as usual he does without telling me the reason- ignored. To appreciate him, I let him stand on his view. He's a teen but I still accept him a baby boy many times. I'll be worried so much when he is back home late or when he stays at his friend's home on holiday. I'll call him many times (it can be 2-3 times in one hour) and ask him if he had take lunch, dinner, praying, etc. When I tell this to my friends, they say it's what other mums always do. But I think it's sometimes too funny to do as I know where he stays and he'll feed himself if he's hungry, right? I may be just a mum who thinks she's the most popular person for her children :) Or I don't wanna see him growing up (no, it's not true!)?

Sometimes I think I'm not a good mum but he's always saying (it's not when we two are arguing, indeed) I'm the best mum for him. He's wondering why his friends' mums can't take what his friends will like to have or to do or to watch because their mums will tell them what they should have, wear, or even sing. Normally, we two sometimes have different taste about music as he likes pop+punk and I'd rather rock. He likes to see Pierre Simple Plan singing 'jump' as he's jumping on stage but for me it's something stupid. Once I told him about what I was thinking about the singer but he explained me why he should do so and he finally said it's so cool (with a long so word). Then I'll like to choose to appreciate what he likes or not and if i think it's funny or stupid, i will ask him and i will listen to explanation he says. By this way he won't argue me why I do love Guns n Roses because Axl Rose is too old as a rock band- frontman for him. He says no any friends of him have a mum like me who like rock so much hahahahaha.... He says their mums would like to watch a tele-opera than a news broadcast, would like listening to a classic-pop music than a hard rock, would like to read a family tabloid than a political newspaper, would like to go shopping than to read an education heavy book, etc. etc. He says I sometimes look like a guy than a woman (Oh, my God!). When I asked him if he would like me to change my style, he said,' Noooooooo, please!' Is not that funny enough remembering he has compared me with his friends' mums and his long explanation describes I'm an 'unusual' mum? For me, it's a good view of him, of course, making me need not to change how to talk, how to walk, how to smile :)

The second guy is a very good friend, someone special, maybe the best male friend I've ever have. He's the first person who I'd like to call when I have a good news and need to share with, when I have a bad day and need a shoulder to rely on, when I need an opinion about something which I should decide soon and he's the first person who I'd like to give a special b-day gift. Badly, he lives so far away and can't ask him to visit me as many as I want. But as a proverb says a distance isn't a problem when people's hearts are close each other.

The third guy is a young guy friend. We met years ago and nowadays he leaves his native country to work. For me, he's a good Muslim with who I'll ask more about faith and Islamic rules. I have no any feeling with him but as a good friend only to share about religion. He gonna marry a pretty young girl soon. I'm happy for him and his girlfriend. I'd written one of his story life in 'The Foolish Indian'.

The fourth guy is my daddy. I should rank him in the third place but I rarely talk to him nowadays (Our last meeting was one year ago) even his words still effect my life style. He's the wisest Hindu guy for me. His words has never run rude, can never hurt every single man, but can deeply touch every soul as he has a very huge love.

The fifth place is for another good friend. He's a logical guy who has burnt his unwise words in his past. He had a very bad past but he could stand up and had been building his new life with his own hands. I've learned so much from his days and been much stronger after listening to his life story.

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The Foolish Indian

Sorry to all, I can't publish this story any longer because the guy in this story asked me to save it as a draft only and he did mind others read his story. He had agreed with me to publish his story at first but then he changed his mind. I'm so sorry for this uncomfortable.

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Indonesian Guys in Comparison

I run into this field because I get closer to males than females. I had never had a best female friend at young age because I thought they're too spoiled, easily to cry, and many couldn't do the easiest guys' job. I'm still curious up till now why females like crying with or without pain. I think they used to such behave to get attention. It's such crap I think.
But today I can't give a fair view about guys because of my years background. But life never been fair, right? So it's ok to keep my view and write it here, isn't it?
In my opinion, Indonesian guys today can't do a fair play with women. Here are the reasons.

First, they think their job are harder than women's jobs. While they're going to office, their wives just stay at home, go shopping, go for manicure-pedicure, chat with their uncreative friends whole days, watch plastic-soap opera (plastic? Yes. Many female artists cover their face and body by plastic:) sorry!) If their wives were employees, Indonesian guys keep thinking their job is higher and more useful than their wives' job. Don't need to compare the salary if you didn't wanna have them bad mad.

Second, they act as a boss at home. How many Indonesian guys would like giving hands to handle home jobs? If he had visited any countries, it's then no wonder to have such free thought. But now I'm talking about regular Indonesian guys. When his wife just gives him a sweet baby and should be in bed longer, he'd like to prepare a maid to serve her than he himself takes care of her. He'd like to give a classic reason that he doesn't know how to take care a new mum even the mum is his wife.

Third, they will use their religion argument to keep their wives under their feet. I'm not arguing how good Islamic laws set women up but guys would prefer taking those laws for their benefits only than doing what Islam ask them.

And Indonesian guys today would like having more than one wife to keep them well but they'd be jealous to see their wife get even a nice smile from another guy. It's pathetic, however. A woman is just a woman. She won't like to share her guy with her competitors. I don't mind a guy to have more than one wife even I'm not a polygamy supporter but he shouldn't take it if it ain't a better way for him and his family and he shouldn't be egoist thinking his needs (sexuality) only and he should use his brain millions before taking a new remarriage.

Once again I tell you all that I'm just writing my view. If you'd like to argue, you may run it on. You can keep your opinion for you and I'll keep my opinion for me. It's fair enough, isn't it?

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