General Chemistry (Part 4): Salts Hydrolysis

1) What is definition of:
a) Salts hydrolysis
b) Partial hydrolysis
c) Total hydrolysis

2) State the type hydrolysis and the properties of the following salts and then :
a) KCl
b) MgBr2
c) SrCl2
d) AlBr3
e) FeSO4
f) Ca(CH3COO)2
g) NaCN
h) (NH4)2S
i) (NH4)2SO4

3) Explain how MgCl2 will show acidic properties when it dissolved in water.

4) Which salt will take the total hydrolysis?
A. NaCl
B. NH4CN
C. NaCN
D. CH3COONa
E. CH3COONH4

5) Which salt will have pH above 7 if dissolved in water?
A. CH3COONa
B. CH3COONH4
C. NH4CN
D. (NH4)2SO4
E. FeSO4

6) Which salt will have acidic properties?
A. NaCl
B. NH4Cl
C. CaCl2
D. BaSO4
E. Na2SO4

7) Which salt will be acidic?
A. Potassium acetate
B. Sodium acetate
C. Sodium chloride
D. Ammonium acetate
E. Ammonium chloride

8) Which salt will not be hydrolyzed?
A. KF
B. NaCN
C. NH4Cl
D. MgSO4
E. CH3COONH4

9) Which solution will produce the partial salt hydrolysis and basic if the number of mole of the reagents is equivalent?
A. HCl and NaOH
B. NH3 and CH3COOH
C. H2SO4 and NH3
D. NaOH and CH3COOH
E. HCl and NH3

10) If the reagent of the following solutions is 1 M, which solution will have the highest pH?
A. HCl dan NaOH
B. HCl dan NH3
C. CH3COOH dan NH3
D. CH3COOH dan NaOH
E. H2SO4 dan NH3

11) Which couple solution will produce the hydrolyzed salt?
A. 100 ml NH3 (aq) 0,1 M + 100 ml H2SO4 0,1 M
B. 50 ml HCN 0,1 M + 50 ml KOH 0,05 M
C. 200 ml CH3COOH 0,05 M + 200 ml Ca(OH)2 0,05 M
D. 10 ml HCl 0,1 M + 20 ml NH3 (aq) 0,05 M
E. 50 ml KOH 0,2 M + 50 ml HCN 0,1 M

12) Which salt formula will be hydrolyzed as below?
CN– (aq) + H2O (l) HCN (aq) + OH– (aq)
A. NH4CN
B. CH3CN
C. Mg(CN)2
D. NaCN
E. Fe(CN)3

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Is Indonesia Safe from Terrorists?

Beginning with the death of the florist in the terror bombing at the Marriot hotel, Ibrohim, after the firefight for seventeen hours, the search for traces’ Nurdin M. Top, a Malaysian terrorist and also the leader of Al-Qaeda in Southeast Asia, who had devastated the beautiful Indonesia, began to show a bright note. He and his cronies had spread terror, put a bomb in public spaces, especially the places visited by many foreigners, especially most Americans.

Nurdin's death in the bathroom of a house in a small village in Solo, Central Java ended up policemen’s long search for the number one terrorist. Indonesian police detachment of anti terror is called Densus 88. It’s then followed by the shooting of his accomplices. One of them is Syafruddin Zuhri, who is suspected as the second guy of their network was shot dead after a fight by throwing the pipe bombs at police.

For a very small part of Indonesians, they are heroes who intend to end the dirty work of America across the world. Indonesia is being the chosen place because the population’s majority of this country is Muslims. That way, the chaos in Indonesia would be a great homework for the interested world. Arab countries certainly very concerned about security in Indonesia to raise the image of Islam to the international world. For Western countries, America for example, Indonesia plays an important role to neutralize the world’s negative view. By a good cooperation with this country will give a positive image of Islamic countries against them. Again, the reason being this is the majority of the Muslims population of this country.

But for most Indonesians, Nurdin and his cronies are just terrorists who tarnish the Islamic face and humiliate Muslims.

My Personal View

I do hate violence, in whatever form and to anyone. Killing other people even with an acceptable reason for feeling is very difficult for me to take it as a good deed. Moreover, if the killings were perpetrated against the people who knew nothing of the matter or may even support what he was fighting for the killers. Although the reason for their version of jihad, a person who kills another person will always be called a murderer, except to kill the opponents in a war. Of course it's something different, however.

Their ideology on behalf of Islam and jihad as an excuse to kill someone else, certainly it’s very opposite of my understanding of jihad. According to the Islamic Jihad which I understand is struggling in the way of God to uphold Islam. This struggle does not mean that according to Islam are allowed to kill anyone, let alone the reasons for differences of religion and the Shari'a.

Sometimes I think, if their purpose is to kill Americans, why they did not come just to America? Would not be much more the American people can be 'sacrificed' for their 'struggle'? Would not it be immediately attract attention around the world?

To Indonesians Who Have Same Vision with Nurdin and His Accomplices

To people who have same vision with Nurdin and his cronies, why you're too cowardly to face the enemy you want the most? Do you know how Islam hates the cowards, don't you? If you asked me if they're terrorists or heroes in my eyes, I will firmly answer: they are big loser terrorists!

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I Just Graduated!

Wow, months without internet connection for fun but just for downloading hundreds journals, e-books, or any other resources, but paid cash finally! I was just graduated from petrochemical engineering master program. It’s The Indonesian President Scholarship Program. I was lucky to get one. To thank him, I put his name in the first list. In paper, I wrote this:

This paper is dedicated to the true supporters in my life:
- Mom and Dad
- Dyer Patriocta P.M.
- LJK
- My sisters, big brother and their family

I’d like to put the abstract of my thesis here. The title of my paper is CFD Modeling to Study Hydrodynamics of Fluid-Solid in Batch Scaled-Autoclave.

The earliest process of coal liquefaction is the mixing of coal, solvent, and appropriate catalyst with hydrogen in a liquefaction reactor. A few numbers of Indonesian experts have done the numbers of lab-scaled experiments of local coal liquefaction which generally used Batch scaled-autoclave reactors.

This paper aimed to study hydrodynamics of fluid-solid mixing as the earliest step of coal liquefaction. To model and to simulate the mixing has been used Fluent 6.3 software and GAMBIT of Computational Fluid Dynamics (CFD) package. This paper runs the modeling in various coal sizes and running time. This model uses 75 micrometer and 250 micrometer of coal sizes, heavy oil as the solvent and alpha-limonite as the catalyst while the running times are 0 – 60 minutes.

The simulation results show that both the size of coal feeds and the mixing time influence both coal and solvent distributions but do not influence velocity magnitude of coal and pressure drop of the mixture in perfect mixing. Since a little number of catalyst used, hydrodynamics of catalyst can not be observed, however.

Keywords: autoclave, brown coal, CFD, coal, coal liquefaction, Fluent.

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The Sweetest B-day Gift

Every one must have a birthday gift. It might come at first birthday, at teens’ birthday, or even at older times. A birthday gift could be so expensive but it might not be sold as a special gift at any stores. A sweet kiss from our parents at young age, indeed, was a very special gift which been impossible bought anywhere.

I had the sweetest birthday gift this year. And its unique part was it was sent to me at 1st as my birthday was 8th May. The sender said he might forget my special date when it came, so he needed to send it much earlier. He’s also worried me not to check my mail box at birthday (He should choose other reasons, right????).

It was sweeter because it’s recorded specially just for me :) And the words are so sweet. To appreciate what he has made for me, I’ve been using my birthday gift as SMS ringtone in my cell phone.

Why was it so special? After reading his words below, I’m sure you will agree with me that it’s very special.

‘Hello, Hon. I just want to say happy birthday. I wish I could be there and da… I do love you…. Love you. Happy birthday!’

PS: I published this post after D-Day for a reason that I can’t take too much birthday gifts (hahahahahaha….)

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My Teenager

I got permission from my son to write about him and also to publish it here. He’s a teen, however. Being a mommy for teens isn’t something easy especially when you’re alone to take care of them. Lucky me (or unlucky?), I just have one with me. At least I just need to separate my attention for less fields, are him, works, household, and the last one is me myself.

He grew up so fast. But I still remember when I picked him to his playgroup’s class. I can remember how I couldn’t know him when we met in the street while I was thinking how poor a mom who had that kid. Though I served his uniform so clean, but then he played ‘soccer’ with his friends at school and he was back to home as a soccer player plus spotted brown everywhere on his uniform. If he didn’t call me, I would pass him over.


His name is Dyer. He’s 15 years old now. Sometimes this young man surprises me. He looks like a mature guy in words. But all I know from his statements is he loves me much.

A couple days ago he told me that some of his male friends talked to him about me and our relationship. It’s about how close we’re.
‘You may mind if I get close with your mommy but I do that with my own mommy. Why should you mind?’ he argued them.
He said that he would kiss me and he didn’t care if his male friends were around. I said it would be okay for me if he couldn’t give me a soft kiss on my cheeks in front of his friends, but he told me that he’s fine with it. Of course I like having his little kiss on my cheeks or lips :)

Last two weeks, I bought him an electric bass after a long month he persuaded me. As I know he loves music so much and he can play some instruments by learning them by himself, and he just has an old-dissatisfied guitar, so it’s a good time to praise him. I could see how bright his eyes, how nice his smile to show how happy his heart inside when he sufficiently had the electric bass.

Nobody has learnt how to be a good parent, nor me. I may not a perfect mommy for my son. But all that I do for him are ones we think good things or even the best for him. They might be not seen too well for him at that time but for his future. I love my teenager and pray for his best life.

If you’re parents of a teen or teens, you can understand how much this love. If you’re a son or a daughter, you will know how much your parents love you.

(You can read more here…)

Indonesian Language (Part 2): The Arrangement

1) The arrangement of Indonesian language

There's a little difference between English and Indonesian language arrangements.

For examples:
Pretty = cantik
Girl = gadis
Pretty girl = gadis cantik (not ‘cantik gadis’)

Dream = mimpi
Buruk = bad
Bad dream = mimpi buruk (not ‘buruk mimpi’)



2) Singular and plural

To change singular words into plural ones we just need to repeat the word. But singular and plural words sometimes have same words, no need to add other letters.

A woman = wanita, seorang wanita
The women = wanita-wanita
A cat = kucing, seekor kucing
The cats = kucing-kucing
A boat = kapal
Boats = kapal-kapal

She has one handbag = dia punya satu tas tangan
She has some handbags = dia punya beberapa tas tangan
Handbag = tas tangan

Attention:
Kupu-kupu = butterfly, butterflies (not ‘kupu’ = butterfly and ‘kupu-kupu’ = butterflies)
Kura-kura = turtle, turtles (not 'kura' = turtle or 'kura-kura' = turtles)

1) Same words or statements but different meanings
Be careful when use Indonesian language because there are so many words or statements will have same spelling or even letters but the meanings are actually different, indeed.

a) Saya sakit hati = My heart hurts/I have liver attack
Hati = liver, heart
Saya = I, mine, my
Sakit = sick, ill

As Indonesian language will double a word to mention plural, we can't say 'some livers' as 'hati-hati' because ‘hati-hati’ means ‘be careful’ or ‘take care’.

b) Tahu itu? = do you know that?/is that the tahu, isn’t it?
Tahu = know, a name of kinda traditional Indonesian/Chinese food
(The second question using when a person is asking you if it’s a certain food u mean or want for).

2) Similar words
Say ‘kepala saya pusing’ to make your friend knows what kinda sick you’re having, but don’t say ‘ kelapa saya pusing’.
Kepala = head, boss
Kelapa = coconut

Some Indonesian words honestly have made me confused to distinguish them because all letters are same, they look same in way of writing (just different one place of letter each other) and when we spell them fast, seems we're hearing same words.

Be careful when people say ‘besok’ (besok = tomorrow).
A western was waiting for his Indonesian friend because the Indonesian man had promised him to see him tomorrow. The Indonesian said ‘sampai ketemu besok.’ (see you tomorrow). He didn’t mean he would meet him tomorrow but he might express next week, next year, some time or if they might meet each other some other day.

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It F*cked Me Off!

I laugh at people who suggesting me that I should be with someone at home. A good friend told me that she worried me when she thought of me as I was always alone and she also suggested me to find someone to be my companion. I once again laughed at her. I said that I was okay being alone because I never felt lonely or even needed someone just for sharing. I explained her that I had a couple of friends out there who would like sharing with me when I needed people to share with. I said that I had someone out there. Just because he’s so far away making him couldn’t be with me at happy or even sad times.

But yesterday I had a spent little time thinking that I needed a companion. While I was getting a horrible maag (a kinda horrible stomachache) and I couldn’t get up even for one inch, I got tears. The tears ain’t for the horrible sickness but for a hate of being alone. I just lied on floor when it was immediately attacking me. I could stand on my hands to take the pills but the problem was I couldn’t stand on my feet or even my knees. I needed someone to help me to take my pills in the cupboard. The worst was I had no someone else but me myself! Oh yeah, I had someone who was singing for giving me a good companion but he couldn’t give me a favor at all. He just sang on my laptop’s screen as I smiled thinking I had him at that time. Oh, my favorite singer!

I then sent two SMS for someone out there. It was delivered but no a reply. I sent the second SMS and I just got sucked. He might not get my SMS or he didn’t have minutes to reply me. I did not know. I then forwarded some other SMS to some other friends and two SMS for my good friend. One SMS was sent to my mom –the way I didn’t use to do when I got a problem or even a sickness – got replied so fast but I was sad receiving it. She told me that I should lick some honey from my fingers but she knew that I forgot doing that treatment. And she got mad then. She and another friend called me three times but I didn’t pick them up because I had been standing on horrible stomachache.

Other reliefs from friends which raised me up were:
'Still get it?' (funny...! I received this SMS when I was at the most terrible time!)
'You’re not alone, honey, you have son and me.'
'Maag? What is that? Yes I know how much hard 2b live alone I wish to give you company.'
For the last reply, I knew that he was confused what maag meant hehehehe... I got laughed so loud.
After all passed, I could take that I was alone and that's fine for sure :)
The sad part was he wasn’t with me when I needed him. This fact actually f*cked me off.

(You can read more here…)

This Blog Has Been Blocked at School Area!

My students nowadays can't browse this blog anymore using school's net connection because it's blocked at school area. The last post which they may read is an article posted on October 16, 2008 title 'What S*ck!' When a student helped me to check the blocker, it's the server of our school and no reason been explained over there. It just wrote: htt://blogwyd.blogspot is blocked and you are not allowed to visit the website. But if visitors use the third party, such as Google or Yahoo search, they can still read all posts. I mean people can search the newest posts if they type the title of the posts or keywords but how they can do that as they don't know what kinda article I've posted! When I tried to google the title, it worked, but it would go nowhere except the un-banned posts when I clicked the forehead of the blog.

Why Is It Blocked?

I can't believe it if one or more students flagged this blog or even reported it as a spam. They liked to read it because I posted all articles using simple English and that way they used to learn English. And for all international students, how they can answer the problems I put over there if they can't check it at school area? I sometimes use my blog to put some questions and ask students to answer when they have time but the questions aren't their homework or even their task. It's the way to let students explore internet plus get something useful, in my opinion.

I sufficiently can't believe it if the reason to block this blog is because of some naughty words here. Yes, I used some naughty or even bad words here, such as f*ck, God d*mn it, s*ck, p*rn, *ss, etc. but all had good relations with whole articles. No any case where I use such bad words just to let others, readers in this case, get negative pleasure. Not at all! Never!

Being a blogger is one of my ways to explode my mind or I gonna get stress because of too much work pressure. And this blog is the only one English blog which school management can report to the central team of RSBI as the net connection between teachers and students of international program. And the school then got A score in the final report.

For whoever has done such bad way, I do need to remind him/her or even they're more than one person, please check all articles here and don't let your own ears to hear what you yourselves can't understand. Just read all what I've posted and you'll know that I've written the facts of our school and nobody will say I've put a lie even a word over there. All are the facts. Almost all words had been explained by me myself in school's meetings as I didn't use to just say something bad behind people's face.

Play a fair game with me, please!

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Am I Too Bad?

These all were what I said and asked in a teachers’ meeting of our school management. The background was our principal’s commitment. Almost all teachers and students said that he didn’t have a good commitment to run management of our school. As I wrote in ‘Does He Hide Something?’, he had left some good programs of our school which had been our icons since the school built, and it affected most of us.

Soon the meeting was being ‘hot’ in the real meaning of hot. We felt that we’re sitting on the fire. He acted as he didn’t know something and kept running his long explanation but it really explained nothing. Soon later the meeting began a war field where the principal wanted international teachers (five teachers) would be paid as much as regular teachers but he asked the five teachers to do three-four times harder of job than other regular teachers for the school’s sake. But students of the international classes have to pay double tuition because they’re studying in international classes. Everyone knows that an international class isn’t cheap to run on! He reported for the monitoring team that the international students had to pay much because the spent money was used for paying international teachers as the teachers had been paid double than regular ones. It’s not fair at all, of course! I and four other teachers who teach Cambridge curriculum for international classes were thinking that we’re throwing into a hot fire. But I think the principal won’t know what others want from him if nobody will explain it all to him. So I did!

"Thanks for giving me a chance.
As you and all have known about me so well, I won’t blame you behind but I’ll tell you my thoughts and even it’s a bitter one to say I’ll say. Since I took my seat and heard what you said, I think there’s no any explanation from you, though you had spoken too long and too much but you didn’t answer one question yet. So I think I need to use the straight words to make you clear and I hope that I and we all here will get a good answer from you later. We do need an explanation to answer parents' questions about our programs.

You always used international class to ask parents of international students pay more. You presented how good international teachers we had in this school and for that reason, parents didn’t mind to double tuition of their kids. And you always said to their parents that the school doubled salary of international teachers. I had discussed with other four teachers and as I’m a home teacher of XI grade of the international class I’ll run the following statements and questions and they’re our statements and questions, not mine.

We five don’t mind not to be paid double or if the school has no enough money to pay us, we’d love being volunteers for the students and this country. But the school and you as the top leader of the school asked parents to pay more than any parents of regular students. And the problem then is you explained parents why they had to pay more. The only reason is because this school has to pay more international teachers. We five don’t mind not to be paid more if students don’t pay more. We five don’t mind you pay us as much as other regular teachers but you don’t ask our international students to pay more than regular students. If they pay more we get more. If they pay more but you pay us as much as other regular teachers, you can’t ask five of us to give more than others. We will give what others give for the school if you value us in salary as much as others in the case the international students have to pay more.

And I wanna tell you all about another one. Students said that I’m a very good mask for you because I’m always ready to fight for you when students try to take you down. But now I have a big question for myself if I have done a right way for students and their parents? Do I have to think once again if the one I’m ready to fight for is a real good one to fight for? Because if we try to be honest for ourselves, we will see that we had run this school by a wrong way. Why do I say so? Because so many good programs are in memoriam today!

Didn’t you ever hear when you’re going around that people out there said many bad things about our school? We’re running an excellent school in this province, we’re running a prestigious school for people in South Sumatera, we’re running one of the best national school in this country, but what we have today? Will we let this excellent school just to be a good memory of people’s mind?

I have a good statement taken from my daddy’s word and I’ll share it for you all here as I’ve kept the word to take my life way. Hope it will be also a good one for you all. My daddy said that if you do something wrong, I'm gonna kick your ass not because I hate you but because of my love for you.
And you know, Sir, it’s what I’m doing for you now in this meeting.

I sufficiently know that my words weren’t nice enough to be listened to, but I hope your main tree is same with mine and you can understand why I do this all for you. Thank you."

I needed more than 10 minutes to blow the all words out of my head. When I was saying those all, everybody said nothing and just listened to me. Almost all teachers then said that I told the audience what they wanna say but they couldn’t say those all because they didn’t know how to say, they didn’t know which words they should choose.

Can you suggest me something why the principal still couldn’t give us the answer after I explained him and audience by those all blunt words? Is he too slow-witted to understand?

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Happy New Year!

Wish you all happy new year!
What's your good plan to fill full this new year?
I have some, at least three here.

I wish I could finish my master program in perfect time with good score. Seems I'm tired enough with the program and it's really hard to spend such time.

I wish I would be a good mommy for my kids, especially my own son. I think I'm sometimes unfair for him as I wanna see he can take what I could in my young age. But we both actually are different persons. Wish i could be with him as long as possible.

I wish I could meet someone in his place. Wish it's not just a short visit but a real long term relationship. I know -as I wrote in What A Surprise, it's for him- it's not something easy to have a real life with him because of our faith. But once he's ready for everything I will.

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What A Surprise!

Yeah, it surprised me much. He phoned me at one night just to say that he loved me. It shouldn’t surprise me too much because the love words are common words to tell how someone loves his/her partner. But he never said it using that way. I mean we might talk to each other by phones but it’s just a talk. He might say ‘I love you’ to end conversation up. Though I know his feeling well as he knows mine, there’s no reason to phone me just to say that feeling because I’m talking about the cost. If one of us phones another one, it will cost high spend. I took the risk for that high cost as it would ask him much more than if I did it. Americans used to be asked a charge for anything as Indonesian people used to take any free charge for any fields :)

I don’t know what reasons of my son to leave this country as he before ignored to take that way. I’m ready for everything but time ain't convenience for us today. If it will be a true moment, the firsts I must prepare are my son to be ready living around new people and list all nice things of our daily life here which we should forget. My parents taught us to love all lands of God. Every land belongs to Allah, and He will take care of us if we rely on Him in anything, anywhere and anytime.

But some friends have been acting unfair for this relationship. They reminded me to think millions before coming to him. The first important thing for the new life is about faith. I believe God will touch his heart if he’s really my true life-partner. I just know that I do love him and I trust him in any ways he has been struggling for us.

I today will have nice smiles if I think of him and his promises. I’m not even a good dreamer but I do don’t mind to dream about our new happy life.

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Does He Hide Something?!

I’m hopeless in any program of my school. It’s not because I’ve been changing to run my work but the only one reason is because the principal can’t work as a good leader for us all. It’s not just what I’m thinking about but it’s the fact which has been happening at our school. Say that I’m a workaholic and not all people can take what I can take. But here at our school there are many programs which leave us behind and we just have a nice memory about them all. We didn’t teach on Saturday since we had an art and sport Saturday where students might balance their right-left brain. We had subjects’ clinic where low students could ask and study more out of their subject’s times. We had scheduled times for Olympiad teams, around chemistry, physics, mathematics, biology, information and technology, and social science. We would gather to read Quran before we start studying at morning. But they all are in memoriam nowadays.

I don’t care how much money the principal will take from our school as long as he still runs old good programs. But I can see no good programs still run on nowadays and the international program has been stuck. I and three-four other teachers asked him at our last meeting we had about all programs. I personally asked him by soft, polite and even rude words but we all just got big nothing. I asked him if he had been hiding something from us. I asked him if I still could proud of him as I did before. I asked him what we should answer when students or even their parents asked us all about their program but he had just played a game with us all and answered no questions. He just gave us his big smile while saying I was a good teacher who had fight for him for the sake of school. Almost all teachers gave up then and I was so hopeless with his commitment doing the best for school.

I’m asking me myself what he has been doing. Does he lie to us? What has he been hiding actually? Has he handful so much money from school for himself and that’s why he couldn’t pay teachers to run those programs? How could he write a bad report as his background is an economic field? How could he write certain number of the expensed money for a program on Wednesday report but used other different number for same case on Friday report but they all were reporting as a same annual report?

I won’t let anybody to throw shit at my students’ face for any reasons. I won’t regret to face such bad people who lie to my students as I teach them to be honest. I don’t care who he is even he’s the Indonesian president, if he lies to my students and throw shit at their face, I do don’t mind to fight with. I’m not a nice volunteer for everything but I do love my students and I will protect them from taking such bad things at school.

God knows what he has been doing and He will give what he should get.

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Love You, Axl!

I had been sad for weeks. But not today! Because of a perfect reason. Just because of the most perfect guy in this planet.
No one else but Axl! It’s because his kindness to release his new album, Chinese Democracy.
Oh God, I was almost crazy for about fourteen years to see it.

After spending worried years with his long arguments not to realease the album, after thinking he would never did it, he broke up all worries and gave a bitter smile on lips of Guns and Roses' haters.

After spending worried years, because of a love for fanatic fans, haters, old and new big fans, and everybody in the world, Axl is kind enough to share his great album. He knows there are so many big fans who still want him to sing and wanna rock this world with him to be a 'better' place. He proved that Axl . never gone. He proved to the world that Guns and Roses is still a top gun! Thanks for Chinese Democracy! The world doesn’t need to wait China will be a democracy country or you’ve been woking Chineses up to proclaim their democracy.

Rock forever for live and mankind! I could be a 'rocket queen' in this d*mned world with a rocked love inside.... Love Axl!

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What S*ck!

This post is for everyone who may try to contact me. This post is also for all friends, my bosses, my clients, and everyone who comes over here. I may be not here for long time after writing this post. I don't know when I may come back here.

Many people say I'm a strong woman. But they are really wrong!
Just thinking life isn't really fair for me. I hate crying but I'm doing....

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Are u in Love?

Ten signals to measure if you may be in love....

1) You miss someone but you actually have no any reasons to miss him/her.
2) You wanna meet someone but you just have left him/her less than 15 minutes ago.
3) You wanna hear his/her voice but you actually just talked to him/her less than 15 minutes ago.
4) He/she is so amazing in your eyes but others say his/her score is just about standard score or lower.
5) You are always thinking that his/her words are nice even when he/she is getting angry with people.
6) You are always thinking that he/she acts something cool even he/she looks like a bad clown for others.
7) He/she looks down on the one but you think he's doing the best way.
8) He/she just has standard figure but you think he/she is sexy.
9) You will feel sexy when you're with him/her.
10) You wanna spend more time with him/her and hope the time will never end.

So... are you in love now?
If you answer yes, it's time for you to tell him/her what is your true feeling.
If you answer no, dont worry... many good men/women out there who are waiting for your love. Find one (at least. huh?! ) for you!

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Indonesian Language (Part 1): How to Spell?

Bahasa Indonesia or Indonesian language unites the over 250 millions people with more than 400 kinda regional dialects or even distinct languages. Learning Indonesian language ain’t something hard. Here I’ll introduce you to Indonesian language and how to spell words using general audience. There are some key points which will be so easy to learn.


1) Each letter has special sound and it won’t be same with others. I’ll write how to spell each letter and you may compare it when you spell certain words in English.
For example:
A = cut, nut, month.
It means we can spell ‘A’ as we spell ‘u’ for ‘cut’ or ‘nut’ or ‘o’ in ‘month’.
I = ink, hint, bee, etc.
U = foot, soon, moon, etc.
E = check, send, earth, etc.
O = joy, toy, obey, etc.

The following consonants are important consonants which may distinguish them with English version as the rest are same.
C = chuck, child, chart, etc. (don’t spell ‘C’ as we spell ‘C’ in cute, case, cell, certain, etc.).
G = grant, good, game, etc. (don’t ever spell ‘G’ as we spell ‘G’ in giant, gee, gentle, etc.).
K = key, kidney, kidding, etc.
R = rare, rule, ring, etc. (use a harder tension for ‘R’ in Indonesian than English).

The all rules will realize all words in Indonesian language.

2) A word generally needs a vocal between two consonants. We’ll find rarely a word has three or more consonants or a word consists of one tension as we easily find them in English, such as words above (cut, nut, month, ink, etc.). Words in Indonesian language needs two tensions, at least.
For examples:
Meja (me-ja) = table
Kaki (ka-ki) = foot
Gigi (gi-gi) = tooth
Duduk (du-duk) = sit
Sakit (sa-kit) = pain, sick
Bahaya (ba-ha-ya) = dangerous
Menjahit (men-ja-hit) = sew
Kelakuan (ke-la-ku-an) = behavior, attitude

Have fun with Indonesian language!

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General Chemistry (Part 3): Thermochemistry

For all students of XI grade, read the following questions carefully, choose one question, give your answer here but once the question has been answered, right or wrong, you can not answer it. Just write a final answer, you don't need to write stepwise. For the last five answers, you may change your answer twice, if the first answer is false.

1) What is thermochemistry exactly?

2) Why do we learn thermochemistry?

3) Give 2 examples of thermochemistry applications in daily life.

4) State a thermochemical equation if ammonium chromate (solid) formation releases 1806.7 kJ/mole of energy.

5) 130 grams acetylene (C2H2) can raise 20 liters of water from 200C to 1000C. Calculate enthalpy change of water and state its thermochemical equation if known density of water = 1 gr/ml and heat capacity of water = 1 J/gr.0C.

6) Known the enthalpy change of ethylene and ethane formations in the manner are 51,8 kJ and 64,4 kJ, what heat will be released by ethylene produces ethane?

7) By using bond energy data in your text book, calculate how much heat will be included to react ethylene and chlorine form ethyl chloride and chloric acid? Please write the bond energy of each substance.

8) Known the following thermochemical equations:
XO2 + CO -® XO + CO2 DH = - 20 kJ
X3O4 + CO -® 3 XO + CO2 DH = + 6 kJ
3 X2O3 + CO -® 2 X3O4 + CO2 DH = - 12 kJ
Calculate the enthalpy change for the following equation:
2 XO2 + CO -® X2O3 + CO2

9) Explain latent heat and sensible heat.

10) What is 1 Btu (British Thermal Unit)? Calculate the number of joules in 1 Btu of heat.

11) What does Hess' Law state and give one example to explain your answer (you may use an example from daily life or even everywhere).


12) The natural gas in methane reacts with oxygen to give carbon dioxide and water. Calculate the heat given off when 0.010 mole of methane reacts with excess oxygen in a bomb calorimeter if the temperature of 1.00 kilogram of water in the bath surrounding the bomb increases by 1.918 0C.

13) How do we measure the enthalpy of a reaction? Explain your answer sharply.

14) What are differences between an exothermic reaction and an endothermic reaction?

15) If a reaction can not go spontaneously what you will do? Explain your answer by giving an example of each way.

16) Predict which of the following substances should have an enthalpy of formation equal to zero:
(a) Hg (l)
(b) Br2 (g)
(c) H (g)
Give your reason.

17) What value of heat will be included in the following blank enthalpy change?



















18) How much heat is given off when 1 mole of nitrogen reacts with 2 moles of oxygen to give 2 moles of nitrogen oxide gas, if for the given balanced reaction is 33.2 kJ/mole of nitrogen oxide?

19) Explain why there is only one value for the standard enthalpy of reaction for a chemical reaction whereas there can be many different values for the enthalpy of reaction.

20) Use the standard enthalpies of formation in your text book to determine whether heat is given off or absorbed when limestone (calcium carbonate) is converted to lime (calcium oxide) and carbon dioxide. Write the heat value included.

21) Use bond dissociation enthalpies to estimate the enthalpy of reaction for the combustion of carbon sulfide in the phase gas to produce carbon dioxide and sulfur dioxide.

22) Calculate the standard enthalpy change for magnesium in the solid phase reacts with fluorine in the gas phase to create magnesium fluoride in the solid phase, assuming that 1.00 gram of magnesium gives off 46.22 kJ of heat when it reacts with excess fluorine.

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Dating Expatriates

I’m interested to write this topic after I heard a friend say something bad about my Caucasian boss. He one day met me and my boss at a mall when we’re talkin’ while drinking coffee. Then next day he said, ‘I don’t know that you’re like any bad Indonesian girls who would like dating white skin guys just for money.’ Well, I didn’t explain him at all about the man who he met at the mall. I think it’s my business to keep it secret. I don’t need to explain everyone what other kinda job I have.

What’s wrong dating white skin guys? If I’m in love with one of them, I can’t think it’s wrong. As long as he’s a normal guy and I’m still a woman, why it should be wrong in his eyes? I heard his long explanation why bad having a date with Caucasian guys. He – and maybe many Indonesians also – thinks when an Indonesian girl wanna date with Caucasian guys meaning just for money or sex. Say it true, but it’s not wrong at all in my eyes as long as those people are mature and they can take responsibility on what they’re doing. Not just Caucasians will use money to tread their girls, rite? Many Indonesian guys do same. And don’t think wrong that many Indonesian guys try to attract mature Indonesian women just for sex or money. Mature people can do everything with their partners if their partners agree doing that way and it’s not wrong at all when it includes money inside.

Here in Indonesia we call white skin guys as expatriates or commonly using a specific name: bule. Bule means white skin people such as white skin people from America, Netherland, Germany, and so on. And my boss who accompanied me at the mall is a ‘bule’. Don’t think wrong that the male friend caught us in a cabin or in a closed room, not at all, as we’re sitting on different seats in a coffee shop, drinking coffee, talking to each other, laughing before he went back to his country. He –my boss- wasn’t holding my hands or even fingers at all. He wasn’t talking nasty to me which might make the male friend thought I was dating with my boss. He wasn’t using his eyes naughty to me. Everything went to a normal way. I’d tried to turn around pretending not to see my friend but he saw me, I guess. But I know why he said that I’d had a date with my boss because my boss is an old guy in real meaning of old. He’s almost 60 years but looks older than any Indonesian guys in similar age.

I run these questions for the male friend who caught me with my boss at the mall, ‘Why can’t I date a Caucasian? Why do you think Caucasian guys are bad for me but Indonesian guys are not? Why do you think I can’t love a Caucasian so you think I’m just interested with his money?’

His answers, say those statements as an explanation because it’s so long, were same with what I got from other male friend when this second guy asking my opinion about having a date with a ‘bule’. At that time, he wasn’t asking me about my experience but my opinion only after he watched an infotainment on TV broadcasting a female artist had a date with a ‘bule’. This artist had some dates with similar races before. At that time I told the guy that it’s not something special. None could force where the artist should place her love as the artist herself didn’t know where she should do. Sweet feeling would go through your heart without telling you on last month that you might be in love with someone in somewhere next month, I said. Later I left him.

Surprisingly the first male friend said hardly that only bad women would be interested with a ‘bule’ in case Mr. ‘bule’ was just a regular guy. What the f*ck he thinks he’s a special guy for any women? What the f*ck he thinks no any ‘bule’ is so special for any other women? Many bule may be good ones, much better that him and his damn selfish-closed mind!

What is A Big Difference between Asians and Caucasians?

My boss told me that he really liked having a relationship with an Indonesian woman. In his opinion, Indonesia women are cute, have exotic skin, soft in words, respect their husbands, good money controllers. If it's true, why Indonesian guys cant see that?

In my opinion, it's something normal if there are Indonesian women attracted with 'bule' without checking their pocket. It's something you are interested with an unusual-new cloth. But I'm not talking to try one cloth and another one just to check which one will be fit for your body.

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In Memoriam: My Daddy

August is a historical month for both Indonesians and Indians. The independence day of India is August 14, and on August 17, for Indonesia. But this year, it might be the saddest August for me since I received SMS which stated my daddy passed away. And the worst was I couldn’t see him for the last time of his life.

Last month he called me telling me that he was at airport, in Jakarta and asked me if I possible met him. Because I was in a long monthly examination of my study, and it’s not so easy for me, I couldn’t visit him at that day. I had to manage my time. When I decided to visit him on one Saturday, my son was sick. So he forbade me to go. I of course couldn’t visit him except on Saturday evening till Monday morning. And the last week before he went back to India, was a big busy week in my school. We’re preparing everything to take the ISO 9001:2000. I had to translate, to edit, and to print hundreds papers. It’s impossible for me to go to Jakarta. Then time was over.

I don’t wanna regret anything. If I couldn’t visit him, not because I didn’t care of him or he’s not important any more in my life, but I must have a reason. He’d know that. He’s a wise man, the wisest Hindu I’ve ever known. He one day said this: ‘If you’re doing something wrong I gonna kick your ass, not because I hate you but because of my love for you.’ Or this one: ‘The world may go crazy but you don’t be the one.’ Or this one when I argued years ago that I wanted my son being someone in my head: ‘Parents will go through the edge of a night, so they shouldn’t be selfish for their sons and daughters because those kids are going to walk to dawn.’

He’s the softest guy in the world who had so much love in his heart. He’s 66 years old when he’s gone. It’s enough for him to spread love over this d*mn world. Because I had no his body and I couldn’t attend his funeral in India I burnt all pictures I had as a Hindu should do.

God promises that a good man will end in a good place.

Rest in peace, my beloved daddy.

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A Highlighter

I was sitting on my chair as I saw a highlighter on my desk. I just bought it a week ago just because someone asked me to buy it. I didn’t know what I might do with that highlighter but put it on my desk. At that time I saw the highlighter, got smile thinking what I talked to the one who asked me to buy it.

I browsed files on my laptop and found some pictures out over there. I blow one up, my favorite picture which someone had sent me. A kind face was on my laptop screen. I didn’t know what to do except looked at the picture. I imagined something nice about the one on the picture. The one who has told me to have a dream, has given me many sweet dreams in my head, has sent me so many roses after I said I loved roses, has whispered sweet words, was on the screen.

I hold the highlighter and tried to do what he had suggested me weeks ago. I know it’s the only one way to have him with me when he’s not around. I smiled. He might be true. He never seen someone do something with a highlighter but he wanted me have it when he was just sitting on his chair and thinking of me. I then wrote my feelings and this post was the result.

Oh God, if I could fly over there and replied what he had done for me, I would do for sure and I didn’t need to wait longer time. I just relaxed as the old Guns n Roses sang ‘Breakdown’… remember in this game we call life… that no one said it’s fair….

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How Should We Face A Terror?

Sometimes we can’t predict with whom we’re having a relationship. Sometimes we think people with whom we’re shaking hands are good people but they’re not in fact. Here I’m not telling you the best way how to face a terror. I just wanna tell you what I did when I had one.

It occurred since 3 days ago. First I thought I need to tell someone about it but his mobile engaged when I called him. Then I told a little part to my big sister and mum, just to remind them all if something bad happened to me. They live in other places of other island. I live here without any relatives but my son. But he stays at dormitory and just back home on Saturday afternoon and back to dormitory again on Sunday evening.

Some people who know about this case say that I’m facing psychos. In my eyes, they have no love inside to feel mankind. Whatever they are in real, I’m then so scared to walk around without covering my face. I need to drive speed just because I’m afraid they may stop me in the street and do something bad. I’m being a phobia in opened areas if I don’t know people surround me. I lock doors and windows one second after I get home. Then use additional keys for doors even I’m at home. It’s something like I’m caging me myself alone at home.

Then I thought it’s not funny to cage myself in my own home just because some people out side were terrorizing and trying to hurt me. But when I read their short messages via mobile phone, I knew they would do anything to terrorize me. My big sister reminded me to be much more careful, to scream and to ask favor from other people when they tried to do something bad to me. She knows that I’m not easy to tell my problems or ask favor from others. But in this case, I’ll scream for sure when it’s needed.

Tips
1)Tell some trusted people about your big problem
They can be witnesses when the psycho goes crazy. I, in my case, told my big sister and mum. I couldn’t tell details but at least they knew.

2)Talk to people about something else
I called some people one by one and then asked some others to call me back.
I didn’t care how much I should pay the charge. I just need to feel safe. Talk to people when you’re scared sometimes can help you a little. You may not need to tell your problem, just need to talk, talk, and talk about all things except your big problem.

3)Be with friends
Don’t let you are alone especially in an opened area. Bad people may do something crazy to you by the third party. When you need to meet those people at certain place, just go there with your friends and meet them in a crowded-opened area.

4)Write your feeling
When you must face bad people, you should write down your big problem because it also can be a proof for others.

5)God will save you
Don’t be ashamed being scared because we’re just human being but keep in your heart that God will always save you. He will take care who believe in Him.

Good luck! God bless you….

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When A Guy Can’t Respect Women

It’s about a guy with whom I was talking yesterday. I had so many bad experiences with him and knew how bad he was. I’m not sure he can be a good guy though he has passed years of his life. I thought for years that he had put some sh*t in his brain. And I proved what I thought of him yesterday.

As I don’t like thinking bad about others and I won’t think one part of him but he contacted me, again, yesterday. I knew for sure when he did it meaning he needed something from me. And I once again proved it. But as he cant respect a woman, and I’m a woman, what I should do for him? Just let my mobile off and it means I cant receive any SMS or calls from other people? Just let he send me SMS but I shouldn’t reply? Just let it ring but I shouldn’t pick it up?

But even via SMS, he tried to hurt me. Did I get hurt? Oh, come on, I’m a strong woman as every single person says about me. So what the problem is then? Nothing. Just wanna write what I had yesterday. Just wanna tell every single person out there that a woman can be stronger, much stronger, than a guy. Just wanna tell women out there that they shouldn’t cry, get angry, or think bad about themselves when guys around them tell something bad about them. Because there are so many bad guys out side who cant respect a woman even by words. Because there are so many stupid guys out side who will try to hurt women for fun. What? For fun? Oh yes, for sure I can say that there are so many bad guys out side who will say so and may act stupid and they think it’s fun, at least for themselves as they cant respect women or even themselves. That’s true!

In my opinion when a f*cking guy cant respect a woman, it means he cant respect his himself and it also means his heart is blind to see how he may have a happy life if he can do a better way.

The guy with whom I was talking yesterday, he made me think of another one. The last guy, with whom I have shared many things and stories, has given me the best view of life which I’ve ever got. And the last guy who I’m talking about, has sent me hundreds beautiful roses which I’ll share some with you all over here.

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Why Do U Smoke?

I asked some people to know why they smoked. Smoking here means smoking of cigarettes only not drugs. I asked what their reasons to smoke and their opinion about getting healthy. Here are their opinions....

1) My father was a smoker so I’m.
2) None in my family is a smoker so I wanna be the first.
3) My grandma smoked but she’s good in health. So I had no a perfect reason not to smoke.
4) It’s just about being a smoker. So what?
5) It accompanies me to spend time. What can I do then if I don’t smoke?
6) Just because I need to forget something. I need to leave this fu*king world but not getting die till now. I’m afraid of God’s punishment so I need something to be with me just to forget I maybe in the fu*king hell someday.
7) Being a smoker isn’t too bad, rite?
8) My gal next-door died without any poison of cigarettes inside her blood. Death will come to you even you’re not a smoker. So, I’m not afraid of being a smoker.
9) Many people around the world get smoke, I’m just one of them. That’s no matter for me or for everyone.
10) Cancer may come to you or me even you don’t smoke, rite?
11) When I need to force my head to think hard, I need a cigarette.
12) My friends smoke, my father smokes, my mother smokes, my little sister and brothers smoke. Are you surprised why I smoke then?
13) One day I had a trip to go to somewhere. I saw a nice young girl was smoking. I saw how she enjoyed her cigarette. She gulped smoke down as her nice eyes looked at her fingers. Her way to get smoke had interested me to get same way. So I did.
14) Just wanna smoke. Do I need a reason?
15) No reason.

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Just Write

It’s not a poem or a story. It’s just what I wanna write. I like it or not, you like it or not, I’ll post it here. It’s not for me myself or one of you. It’s just what I wanna write. I’m letting my fingers to type what they wanna type. This written paper will have a meant or not, I don’t care. Here’s what my fingers typing:

I don’t know why I immediately feel so bad. I just wanna keep my mouth from any words. I don’t wanna do something. I just wanna let my brain get rest. I just wanna close my eyes, not to see my fingers typing. I just wanna be alone. I just wanna talk to my heart. This life has never been fair. Acting on the stage is what we’re doing.

I don’t know why I immediately feel so sad. I cant see there’s a bright in this world. I hope this world will stop around. It just wastes time to circle this universe without bringing happiness for itself. It’s just doing something un-useful. None will care of it. None. None will see its sadness as none will see mine.

Have you ever cried but you don’t know why you do. Have you ever think this world just has a narrow place for you. Have you ever seen the sadness power you strong?

I came to a friend’s home. He asked me why I looked so sad. But I didn’t say a word. I just sit down on the sofa. But I didn’t wanna let myself trapped at that beautiful house. I got to the car and drove it speed. As I played Guns n Roses hard I cried. I let ‘Patience’ and ‘Estranged’ filled full my mind. I played them again and again. I didn’t know why and what for. I just felt so sad. I just wanna cried. I had never cried for so many years. I almost forgot how to cry….

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Rudeness in Indonesian Guys’ View

How can they have 180 degrees difference of opinions?

My friends say I have much love in my heart. They say I’m honest and they like to hear my opinion when they must face a problem because I’ll show them the truth. I’m kind and love mankind.
And the other hand, many office mates say I’m rude. My words are too rude, I always answer sharply and speak straight forward. I’m not like an Indonesian in views and life style. I shouldn’t be so honest because I’m an Indonesian. Are they too opposite each other?

I don’t mind what other people think of me. I don’t mind what they all will say about me. For all reasons, I won’t change myself into somebody. I know I’m not a perfect one. I may do something wrong and I’m not good enough in religion, at least I won’t share my opinion based on my religion except people ask me.

A hard one is I can’t hide something bad behind my back. I won’t say a bad thing as a good thing even for my enemy. I won’t push my enemies (If I had) to a gorge. I’ll say the truth even it’s too bitter to say. I’d heard many people say that I shouldn’t say the truth for my enemies or especially my boss. Why can’t I? Why should I hide the truth for some people and say it for others? In my eyes, all people are same. Just because they eat different food, it doesn’t mean they’re special in this case. The truth will be the truth in everywhere. It doesn’t care if you like it or not or you can take it or not.

I won’t appreciate my office mates based on their personal behave but just based on their skill or works. I sometimes don’t see or say hi to some of them for weeks because of my busy days. I don’t care what they will do as long as they don’t take hand on my work, I won’t be busy with their private business.

About Yesterday

I proved once again that being honest ain’t a good thing here in my country. School arranged a workshop for all components in the school but students. We’ll use an adoptive-adaptive curriculum in new academic year, so we need to create new administrative papers. The problem is the new curriculum should be written in two kinda languages, Indonesian and English, for math, physics, chemistry, and biology which these four subjects will adapt and adopt Cambridge curriculum.

As usual, I used to ask what I should or may do and make everything clear before I start to work. So I asked the chairman of the workshop. This guy doesn’t teach one of those subjects. He teaches social science. He answered me with his mother language which I couldn’t understand.

‘Okay, I’ll ask you once again. Which curriculum will we use, IGCSE and A/AS level or IGCSE only? Which year of curriculum should we use because we’re managing a curriculum for new academic? The students will take the examination in 2010. The fastest one may be in 2009 but we just have curriculum 2008. Let’s make everything clear what we should do first,’ I repeated as tried to speak loud because we’re in the school’s main hall and no a microphone with me. He couldn’t hear me if I spoke softly, could he?

He took a seat beside me and showed me his mad face. I didn’t care if he got mad. I just needed to know what I had to do. I can’t start to work before I know what I should do, right? Then he said that I’d used rude words. How the hell should I speak? What kinda words would he like to hear? I’ll say they’re typical Indonesians for such guys. They don’t know what to do but when others can do better they’ll say badly for them. God damn it, why most Indonesian guys can’t accept their weaknesses?

When I told an Indonesian male friend about it, he agreed with me. In his opinion, it’s really true. See, he’s a guy and he’s an Indonesian but he agreed with me!

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BOMB

Once again I received an offline message from an Indian friend telling me how Indian Muslims bombed a town there, named Jaipur. The bomb blast had killed twenties people and hundreds injured. Jaipur ain’t a city of Indonesia and I’m not an origin Indian. Not because my daddy lives in India and I have some good Indian friends and they live in some cities over there, so I think the bomb is a wrong-bad-fool thing.
Without I planned, I recalled my memory about Bali bombing. I still could remember how hundreds people died and thousands injured. Many of the killed people were foreigners. The most were Americans.

A few months later the bombers were arrested but not all Indonesians believed that they were the real bombers. I had no opinion if they’re real bombers or not but I got happy if police had arrested the real bombers. They might be just victims as the world wanted the bombers and didn’t care who they were. But years later the time proved that they really knew how to kill and they believed something stupid about being a killer. Those bastards look so innocent, they speak softly as they can’t kill even an ant. But they did, not just ants but people in the early morning of October 13, 2002 in Bali, a Goddess Island of Indonesia.

I’m not reminding everyone how bad it was. It ain’t an interesting story to tell at all. The victims and their relatives don’t wanna watch the movie which bases on it. I can understand. I who don’t have any relatives or even someone I might know as a victim can’t stand any more to recall the story. Not full story, neither even a little part.

Islam and Peace

I love peace. God also loves peace, doesn’t He? I can’t understand how people can kill other people in the name of Him then? I read the Bali bombers told that they might go to heaven if they could kill their enemies. The enemies are people who have different religion with them. They may be Muslims. So they wanna tell the world that Islamic rules allow them to kill other people. How do the hell they argue so? Is that what Islamic rules really say? I can’t believe that even a word!

Islam loves peace. Muhammad the Prophet (p.u.h) by using Hadist and Quran taught his follower to love other people. He never taught his follower to kill people or even animals without any reasons. He appreciated other religions and he never forced anybody to convert into Muslims. He worked together with his Muslims guys and other religions’ guys. He corresponded with the king of Roman. He taught to proud of Jesus Christ as one of the Muslims’ messengers.

I’m a Muslim though I’m not a good one for sure but at least I never think to kill other people or even just hurt them, both Muslims and people of other religions. I know God never made a mistake in anyways and he isn’t blind, doesn’t need to sleep or even take rest, doesn’t need to eat or drink, and we human can’t hide anything from Him. He’ll punish who has destroyed His earth. I believe this in my life.

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Oh God, I still Love Him Up till Now!

Is it funny enough to love Guns n Roses in your rest life as this old band is broken already? Is it stupid enough to wait for the Chinese Democracy as it’s unreleased after years waiting for the most wanted album? I’m that one stupid people of millions.

I never spend a day without listening to one of G n R’s songs. The funny thing is I can’t listen to their new songs but old ones only because Axl holds his new album on his own hands and doesn’t wanna share them all with his fans. I’m –as millions people in this planet doing – waiting that great new album, thinking he will release it, while listening to his old albums.

I had tried to hate him because of his bad attitude. I even wrote down on a paper why I still waited for his songs, why I still listened to his old songs, why I should love his songs and why I saved his pictures in my laptop, to make a way to leave him and his old songs. I had listened to his speeches as he always used to choose bad-rude words while tried thinking that he’d acted so bad. But they all didn’t work at all.

I think he won’t release his new album, never, but a small space in my heart is still looking forward. And that stupid heart has saved some songs of Guns n Roses in my cell phone, makes it as ring tones for SMS and a call. It also uses his hundreds photos as screen saver in my laptop. That’s so stupid and it’s my heart!

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How Do We Possible Have Our Sweet Home?

When I decided to buy that house, it ain’t because we needed a house. We rented a nice home and I saved remain of money as I wasn’t a good shopper. As I had no much time to go out and also couldn’t stand crowded places, I’d rather be home. Because the saving money was much enough to credit a small house with its small space, and my office male mates burnt me to buy one, so I did. But I didn’t think we would live there at that time.

But years later I thought that I wasted some money to rent a big house and let my own small house just standing there without someone would clean it. So I tried to save money again –I lost all of saving money because of one reason- and slow but sure we tried to keep in our mind that the house was belong to us. My son and I went there sometimes just to check if we did have our house. It was funny enough, right? When we decided to move there, friends said that it’s a good choice. Because when we had stayed at our own home, we would think what more we might do for the home and when we needed to buy a stuff we would mention if that stuff would suit with our rooms. I thought it’s true.

So we –my son and I- wrote down what we needed and what we had to do first. Paint the house! I calculated how much it was but my son challenged me that we could paint our home by ourselves because it would have good paint that if we asked for others. I got laugh at first thinking it’s so impossible because I had no time. But he said that we could try. Yeah, we could of course! He told me that he wanna paint his room colorful. And we did! It has blue sky, soft pink and soft yellow!

Then I thought it’s impossible for me to have a sweet home because price of all matters were so high. But then I knew the key.

When the money is limited but we wanna have our sweet home, we can calculate how much money we should pay. Then ask the maintenance guys to calculate and how much we need to pay them. When it’s much lesser, we can ask for them to do all parts and we just know it’ll be finished and we will take the home key. When it’s much higher, we can buy the matters by ourselves and pay them just for their work. We should draw a blue print of the house and explain details for the maintenance guys. Don’t build all parts in one time. Just build one by one.

We sufficiently will have our own sweet home for sure!

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Where should we put the love?

It should go to a right place. Where is the right place? Nobody can predict where it’s because nobody can read his/her future.

It’s something interesting when a guy asked me more about my identity just to make him himself sure about his dream. He one day had a dream that he would marry a woman from Indonesia and that dream also told him about her name. For those reasons, he asked my complete name, my date of birth, time of birth, and what the place name was. I asked him if the dream also told him about all things completely. He said he just wanna ask a smart person who could read future if I was his destiny. Wow, it’s more interesting than I knew before.

Yes we’re old friends. But friends shouldn’t be in love each other as a woman and a man. Friends are friends. The love between friends is different with the love between a man and a woman. The relationship between friends is so special but it’s different with a man-a woman relationship.
I got mad with him when about one week later he came and told me the result of his trip. He said the smart person told him that everything between us was good. He clearly told me that he would marry me. What the fuck! How can he marry a woman just because he listens to the stranger? The smart person is a stranger for him, right? How can people believe in what a smart person tells him just because he says that he can see the future or read lines on your palm? Wake up, it’s the new millennium where we live in the one world only and we can know what happens in the other side of the world just in the second? When I told him these all, he got laugh so hard and said that I sounded like someone who didn’t believe in Goddess. He said I’m frustrated for years and it had changed me. What the hell is it? Me? Don’t believe in God? Oh my, nobody will say so. Everyone knows that I believe in Him but I just can’t believe in guy who acting as Him.

For me, I won’t be in love with a guy who I don’t know much about him. I may have a sweet feeling for him but it’s not a love. It happens just because he’s a man and I’m a woman. It’s something like when you meet an interesting one and you think you both may have fun together but it just what you think about you and that man/woman but not what you do in real with him/her. So it’s not a love at all.

So what we can say about love? It’s something unpredictable, neither by old people nor by young ones.

My Love

Not easy to say that I can be in love with someone after long bad past I had. What happened? It’s too long to tell but too much longer to write. I’d like to let it pass away and leave it behind.

Where do I put my love then? I share with every single person surround me and with some special ones. Some? Yes. But they get different loves from me. One of them is so special in my heart. He’s a nice-good guy with a big loving heart who is decent to be loved. He told me one day that I had covered the holes of his heart where he had placed his love long time before. For me, it means he loves me. So I think I’m not clapping in the air by my one hand.

I sufficiently wanna say that a love is something special in your heart when it comes to the right place. Find your right place and put your love over there. A love just comes from the God, never come from the evil.

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How Did I Face Threats?

These are my experiences of facing threats.

The first threat came from a father of my ex student who had to move out from our school because the student had collided many rules of the school. I tried to persuade the student that being a student of our school wasn’t the only one way to get success. So even he had to move to other school he could be success, I said.

A couple weeks later his parent phoned me and threatened me that he would report me to the police station because I had blamed his son in front of other students after his son moved out. I said he could ask every singe person in the school what I did to his son. If he could find something bad that I had done to his son, he might report me and I would face him. I wasn’t afraid of anything if I didn’t do something bad, I just tried to teach my students as well as I could and I didn’t mention who their parents but I would take care of them all as they were my own children, I explained him. I accept his son or other people’s sons here at dormitory as my own sons.

Every body is special in my heart. I’ll never hate a kid just because I have problem with his/her parents or sisters or brothers. I’ll get mad when kids try to against any rule but I never punish one of them. I’ll ask them what they should do. For an example, when kids don’t clean their room, I’ll ask them to clean it up. I don’t care they’re getting a sweet dream at that time. I’ll make them up and do what they should do before they sleep. Students say that they don’t wanna have a problem with me because I actually don’t give them a punishment but I will get discipline in anything. Students of X level say that they will rather face the principal than me because when I say something I’ll do that and I’ll get discipline with the made rules.

The second threat came from a woman who considered herself as a member of a Citizen Social Activity Group (LSM). At first she sent me a sms to ask the principal’s cell phone number. I replied her that I didn’t know it. About one hour later she sent me a number of sms and all said bad things of our school, SMA Plus Negeri 17 Palembang. I replied one by one and at that time I didn’t know that she’s a woman. By reading her rude words and statements, I thought she’s a man. When I phoned her cell number back, it’s engaged. I did about 4-5 times but she didn’t wanna pick it up.

The second incompletely sms of her said something wrong about Our School Olympiad Team. I replied ‘sorry, your sms came to me incompletely and you sent to a wrong person. I’m not a decision maker in SMA 17. I’m a trainer of Chemistry Olympiad and all students of Chemistry Olympiad Team reached the higher competition, is the province level. Sorry that I don’t like SMS, too lazy to press keypads’.
But she replied again and said worse about the school. One of my reply said ‘Wow, you know nothing about SMA Plus Negeri 17 Palembang. Better not to say something which you don’t know about. BTW thanks for sms, hope they would motivate all members of 17’.

But she replied me again with a sms which had no relation with my last sms and sent me some sms then. She tried to threat me and the school. she hoped I would get mad for her and I might reply her with bad words. She’s stupid and she didn’t know me at all. I replied her again ‘U look stupid much more than I thought of u before. I HATE sms, ok? Just pick your phone up or be a looser in your rest life. Get me, guy?’
I knew later that she’s a woman because she explained it by another sms.

Who is that stupid woman?

If she’s really a woman and she doesn’t know me, she’s really stupid. She just tried to fool me by her sms but she’d get nothing. Poor people!

I don’t wanna waste energy just because some bad words purposed to me or my work. If she would talk to me, I’d explaine her what she wanted to know about me myself, school, and my work. I bet she was trying to find something wrong in my work but she couldn’t find one anyway. I’m not talking that I’m perfect in work but at least I had given the best for me for school and students. If someone dare to say that I didn’t do my job well, she must be crazy. None will hear her words.

For me when I decide to do something I’ll give the best of me. I won’t ask other people to help me before I myself will try that work again and again. I won’t take a job which I think I can’t do well. I know what I can or can’t do because I just take hands on my work not on other people’s works.

How could I be calm when they're threating me?

Just don’t think that you’re talking to normal people. Imagine this: can you get mad to crazy-minded people? If u answered ‘no way’ you’re a normal one. So normal people should listen to in-normal people because it’s a way to recover their heart and mind.

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The Shoddy Education System of Indonesia

Was I too stupid or blind so I couldn’t see the shoddy education system in Indonesia? How could I pass anything around me for years as I’m a teacher who is in the education system in this country? Just because I don’t do that I shouldn’t be blind in this case.

Let me make it clear.

I was shocked enough when a XII level student told me that the newspapers today had painted about the national final examination. They reported about 1-2 senior high schools in the city which had cheated in the exam. He told me that the teachers of those schools who had cheated the national exam by giving the answer keys of the national exam questions. They opened the seal of covered question papers a few hours before the real examination should occur. They answered the questions and shared the answers for their students and those students would share them with their friends and all XII level students in the city had known the answers before they went to the school to take the exam. What the fuck!

The student told me that he didn’t trust the answer keys because he had studied and he trusted himself. He might say that because he’s a good student as he’s the national Olympic participant. What about other students who aren’t too clever?

And when I was taking the university lecture, a class mate told me a same story of the national exam. I just could say ‘oh my God, oh my God’ many times to show how I was shocked. He smiled but understood that I did don’t know about it. He told all then. You’ve known now why the title of this post is ‘The Shoddy Education System of Indonesia’.

How Can Teachers Do That?

I give these questions to teachers who have run that way. Don’t you think you shouldn’t be a teacher because you show a bad behave directly into students’ deep eyes? Where will you take the students by showing them a bad lesson of life? Do you think that you should be with them all the time of their life? How do they can be possible face their life when you take hands in all of their important jobs but you don’t show them the way of facing life? How can we have good fighters if we fight for them in their battles?

I know sometimes I show bad attitude for others, students in this case, but I never think I’ll teach them how to cheat. I’d taught students and prepared them all to take the exam since they’re in X grade and I thought it’s enough. For about three years, teachers in our school had taught students how to fight, prepared their guns, and showed them how to win the battle. I know if we had more time we’d teach them again and again but the time was over. Ready or not, they must fight.

We all –I at least– trust them that they must be able to pass the final examination with good scores.

Pay Much Money For Nothing?

I’m curious why the government wanna waste so much time and money for a big nothing? What for they created the chosen good-standard questions to select which students might pass the exam and which ones might lost if the teachers who would answer those questions and not students?

In my opinion, it’s not fault of the teachers only. It’s a circle of the shoddy education system. I can’t think wrong about teachers not because I’m also a teacher. I think they need money as we all do. Their salary may be too low to pay everything –assume that they just earn from school and have no any other job but teach– and they’ll lost their job if students failed in the final exam. If the number of those students is big enough, the number of new students in the next academic year will be less than the last year. It’s a devil circle in education as the government can’t warrant good life for the citizen.

So what for we waste money to form a certain team and to create the final questions if the questions could select no students? Let’s forget about the final examination for the last grade of each level education if we do think about our society. Why don’t we use the money to create a better life for poor people so we may have a better life in this country? Government can use the money to pay a better education so students can study in any good school without paying any cent. We can pay the money for teachers to take higher education so they can develop their ability and skill and our education system will be better in the future. Having good education means having good generations.

God damn it, we gonna see soon how this country will disappear from the world map.

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The National Examination for Senior High School

I just wanna congratulate my students of XII level who are going to take a final examination of senior high school. The time is next Tuesday, April 22, 2008. It's the waited day for them all of course as they've been studying hard (or not, depends on the students) for three years for regular students and about two years for acceleration students.

How can you prepare it?

If you just wanna prepare yourselves right now it's tooooo late! You should had spent years (2-3 years) as well as you could before. But... if you had passed them not as what you'd planned, there's no any other way to change the time but just face your days.
I just wanna say that it's pretty late to take any courses to know the easier way to solve the problems of your specific subjects. But not too late if you could pass the final examination and then you wanna prepare yourselves to take any higher level. There's no wrong to learn something new but start it now or never. Don't blame yourselves because you'd passed a few years by wrong ways. At least you can start it for the next higher level of your education.

Be a honest person

You may not prepare yourselves so good but it doesn't mean you can do any way to take good scores. As I'm always telling you all that you have to be honest young people. If you're taking the examination and you couldn't answer as many as you hope in the exam, please don't cheat. Because being a cheater will prove yourselves and every single person that you're nothing! Don't be a looser for nothing you can sell for!

The last words in this post

I love you and I'm sure that you all have known it since long time ago. So kids, with my big love for you all, I'm gonna accompany you in your examination days by praying for you all.

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God Should Know

I have a big question for God. Does He know what my heart is talking to? If He’d answer yes, He should know what He might do. If He’d answer no, I’d tell Him all feelings I’m having right now. But guess He knows already so I don’t need to explain it all here. That’s why I’m wondering so much why He just keeps silent. I don’t know why He doesn’t wanna work by his miraculous hands in this case. I asked him for years. Does He wanna see my sadness again after years it has accompanied me? Come on God, You know I hate crying.

So we must wait and wait for something which we don’t know where it will end or when it will end. Oh God, honey, He should understand that I’m not that patient and He should know what has been happening. I wish all of our dreams would come true before we got up.
For God’s sake, He should do something in this case.

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P*RN

When I heard that Indonesian government would close any fissure of porn in internet, I thought it’s pretty crazy. But it happened. The government would like to have idiot citizen by locking the p*rn in internet, right? It’s not because I like to watch porn spreading in internet as I have a teen with me but how we can say something is p*rn or another thing isn’t because p*rn is not same for every single person.

The saddest thing for me is they also block Youtube even we may find so many good channels over there. As I have no much time to watch television and because television just give me nothing so I’d like to watch news from Youtube. From Youtube, I knew how the world – ordinary people in the world in this context – accepts Indonesians and my country. I also learnt new vision of my religion over there. But they block it and they can’t show me other choices to improve my needs. How stupid!

I have my own opinion about this case why the government would like to block certain websites. You know, when someone thinks others will do something he probably has done that. So… because so many members of parliament loved to watch p*rn in internet and their children also loved to watch the same, they thought the p*rn would spread in all homes of Indonesians and it’s very danger because they won’t be the special members of p*rn websites!

Today they’ve planned to block Wikipedia and Google. They think Google has opened the way for porn. Don’t they know that Google is a search engine? By blocking a search engine meaning you’re closing a street! I’d love to inform those idiot people to block Yahoo! and Yahoo! messenger also. If they did it, they’re really idiot donkeys!God knows how they have been closing any door of Indonesian people to see the wide world.

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It's Really Bad

Seems it has any relation with last post titled 'Not Good Enough', doesn't it? But hey... it just describes a few parts, not all.

Because I wasn't good enough, I used to be alone and tried to analyze why it happened. The result is... I still don't know why it has been happening and what I should do to solve it. Honestly it's getting worse today... and it's really bad now.

I've thought too much I guess and my head is asking me to stop thinking about it because it's really overload so I can't post any good story here.

I don't know when I'll come back but I will as soon as I can... for sure.

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Not Good Enough

The most women may use their feeling to solve a problem but for sure it ain't my way at all. But hey... I'm a woman, right? How cannot I use same way with other women? Had I got too close with my father to make me think as what guys think? I thought I wasn't so close with my father when I was a teen only. But later we were. A few years before he passed away, he told mom, my sisters and brother that he wanna stay with me if mom went away before him. I can still remember how he stared at me when he at first time knew that I'd decided to wear hijab. I thought we weren't so close but he chose me to live with. He'd talk so much to me when he's staying with me. He talked everything and reminded me that I wasn't alone in this world. He said that I shouldn't take other people as I'd accepted myself because not all guys were good. Some people out there might get the advantages for themselves if I did trust them too much. I didn't know why he said so. But all are the truth I guess. And now I also cant use feeling as what other women do.

The title above describe my recent feeling. Not good enough. I don't know why I can't focus well on something. Am I too tired of this sucked life? Am I too old to think much? Yes I'm old already as I'm a mom of teenagers. I'd also seen too much in this world and many parts of it were so bad in my eyes. Yes, many parts....

I may be too tired to listen to office mates lying too much in their works. I just be close with a few number of office mates because they will tell me if I did wrong things. They're true friends I guess. But recently I can't chat with them as I have too much work and must go out when they all are in school. I think (see... I'm thinking again... this brain will be overload soon...) I don't know what to say because I'm not good enough inside.

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Does Stoichiometry Suck Your Life?

Oh God if I knew what the easiest way to teach stoichiometry for my students, I would run that way! I do don't know other way to explain stoichiometry after trying all ways I'd known. For me personally stoichiometry is the best part of chemistry. The most I loved in chemistry when I was at school was stoichiometry. I'd take the highest score in this part but not in the characteristic of Periodic System because this part might ask you to memorize too much thighed statements as I didn't like to memorize. For me at that time when a kinda natural lesson asked you much to memorize, the lesson should go to a social science. No wonder then why I loved stoichiometry more than other parts of chemistry.

But, oh my, I still need to face the worst world of mine after years I've struggled it. With no good mood of the weakest heart I put my students' papers on the floor as I was sitting around and checked all points of each paper. I hoped I'd find something wrong with my check point on some papers, hoped I was blank when I checked one or more papers and I needed to recheck the score. But I couldn't find something to increase even one score of the papers.

It's the second exam of stoichiometry. I needed to rerun the same field because nobody had taken a good score in last stoichiometric exam. Every single person should take minimally 70 as her/his score to pass the exam. In the last exam, the highest score was 42 and the lowest one was 14. And now I'm rechecking results of the second exam. The highest score is 48 and the lowest is 8. There are some students take 8 and some others take 16.

If I'd be a uncared teacher or I'd leave this part after leaving the chemistry class, I'd love it but how I could because I'd accept students as my sons and daughters. Will a mommy leave her kids alone when they need her? So I'm here with my students' papers and just face their papers on as my paled face going much paler. I don't think my students too stupid to answer such stoichiometry questions. Yes they all were A-level questions but we'd discussed such questions in the class. When I asked them why they couldn't answer the questions and many didn't answer essay questions, they said they didn't understand the questions because they were in English and I used new vocabularies in many questions. Of course I won't give same questions with what we'd studied in the class. All vocabularies I used in those questions were just common vocabularies and as I used Cambridge tutorial to check the British English style on the questions.

I'm curious what's wrong with my students. Do I use wrong ways when I'm teaching stoichiometry? Should I change the way I teach them? Can someone out there tell me what better way i should run on?

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Words From A Son

Young generations today will share only a little part of their activities with their parents. They may try to find someone out there to share the rest. Why can't they share everything -many things at least- with their parents? Will their parents listen to them? Will their parents understand what they want and give them fair opinions? I was shocked enough when a few days ago my son told me about his friends' parents.

He told me that his male friends needed to hide their female friends' names in their cell phones memory because their parents would check with who they're sending SMS or even talking to. So the kids will create new boys' names for those girls' names. I told my son that I trusted him much and I thought he wouldn't do something bad behind me. To give him choices, I asked my son if he'd like if I did same thing. He said, he's happy with the way I'd chosen and he didn't want me to change it.

He asked me then if I was bothered with songs he'd like to listen to. He asked me how I could like such hard songs. Just to make you not be confused about it, he likes underground music and his band will play such songs on stage. But I said if he liked such songs, I didn't need him to change his way. Even for me the singers who sing his all loved songs seem like people screaming I won't ask him to leave them. I also won't tell him that sometimes I have headache when the singers scream too loud. By this way he will learn how to proud me and he wont play his kinda music when I'm studying or needing a big concentration.

The conversation which I had with my son reminding me that sometimes young genres run wrong ways because older people want the younger ones to run their ways as those young genres' ways. It's kinda something unfair for younger people, isn't it?

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English Ability of Indonesian Students

Look... I teach in a plus school which has international classes. An international class should mean the class which will use an international way in study. It means students in kinda class should have a good ability in English. Since teachers who teach the program don't get enough information about the students, we - especially I - think students must have a good English ability. At leas they can speak English better than the teachers, they can debate in English, they can create any tasks of any subjects in English, they can write any thoughts in good English, and many more.

I'm tired enough to remind my international students to speak or write in good English. It's the only reason why they will cry, 'Oh, no!' when I ask them to speak English in chemistry class. But hey, they're joining an international class. They've been taking any English course. They've watched any English version of movies, and they will comment in English in their friends' friendster page, however. Why are they scared of using English in class then?

When I visited the capital city, Jakarta, and talked to some young people in English even not fluently they didn't mind to answer me in same language. It's surprised me enough. So i think the regional students should improve their English ability if they wanted to run as fast as their competitors in other regionals. I've given them a good example here to build this English version blog as I'm one of international classes members even it just uses a simple-informal styled English and I do don't care about grammar. Why should I be worried about grammar because my foreigner friends can understand what I've written here.

I'm still looking for my international students to get rid their scary in English. By the way, can you imagine how hard any English teachers from other schools to teach their students?

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The Reasons to Create Blogs

Being a blogger is a trend here nowadays. I wasn't interested to create a blog at the time as I had no so much time to write any posts or to manage the blog. For me once I have a blog, I must build it as nice as possible and I don't wanna do a job by putting my half heart only on that field. But when I typed 'SMA Plus Negeri 17 Palembang' to search an updated news of our school, the links went nowhere. I was so sad to think that the school was a plus tittled school in South Sumatera but there's no any new information from the school management. How could people know what it was? What if people want to know what programs the school may launch, who the principal is, who will teach their kids if they had any kids studying in the school, etc. etc.

I reported to my principal about it. He said that the school had had a website. But he might be surprised when I said it didn't work any more. Then I asked the IT frontdesk why the website was staged and went nowhere. He -in my eyes- gave a bad response by saying, 'I don't want it go to somewhere. It will scary me up'. I didn't care what he might say or how bad his words or body style when he's answering me. It's not a big problem for me. I just wanna see when people out there wanna check something about our school, they will get a correct information.

There 's nothing I could do but just waited. So I waited for the updated website and waited and waited. I talked to the highest level students to create any personal blogs and to write any posts about their school. But students said they couldn't write a good article and they had no much spare time to manage the blog if they had created one. Oh God, they do have much time and write an article just will take a little time of theirs. Once again I could do nothing but just waited. I'd waited for almost two months but there's no any good replies from both students or the school management.

I couldn't waited for any longer. I thought someone should write any new thing or a correct information about the school. I thought someone should create a website or a portal or a forum which would write the school's name many times to let the search engine find one when people were browsing. If there's no someone out there would think that they'd do this job, why I should ask them doing this job? Why should I just ask others but I didn't do that job? No time, too busy, or etc. etc. aren't a reason to not to build a website or a portal or a space in internet.

At first time I was confused what I should do. I didn't know how to create a website even I knew there are so many free spaces or something like that in internet. But I didn't change in this way. When I want to know something I will learn it as well as I can and it will work later as what I want. I run the same way in this case.

I browsed and browsed to learn what the hell a domain meant. I learnt what the meaning of a website, a domain, what differences among a website, a portal, a forum or even a blog. I got all clear then. So here I'm. I've sufficiently built two kinda blogs, one is in Indonesian language and this one is in English. Time shows me later that Indonesian version go much faster than this one.
I don't care about the statistic. One thing I'll care is when people wanna get a news or an information about our school, SMA Plus Negeri 17 Palembang, they may get a correct information. When you search by using Google search engine today, you may see my blog over there and it will give you a correct information about our school.

Because I love working in SMA Plus Negeri 17 Palembang, I dedicate my blogs for the school.

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General Chemistry (Part 2): Questions for X Level

The following questions are about:

• All mater
• Elements, compounds, and mixtures
• Atomic structure and Periodic Table
• Bonding and structure
• Chemical calculation
  

1) Which one is a compound?

A. A leaf

B. A paper

C. A pocket of dry ice

D. A tube of toothpaste

2) Which of the following electronic configurations represents an element that will form possible one simple ion with a charge of –3?

A. 1s² 2s² 2p⁶ 3s² 3p¹

B. 1s² 2s² 2p⁶ 3s² 3p³

C. 1s² 2s² 2p⁶ 3s² 3p⁶ 4s² 3d¹

D. 1s² 2s² 2p⁶ 3s² 3p¹ 4s² 3d³

3) Which of the following ions contains unpaired electrons?

A. Fe²⁺ (Z = 26)

B. Mg²⁺ (Z = 12)

C. Ti⁴⁺ (Z = 22)

D. Zn²⁺ (Z = 30)

4) The successive ionization energies, in kJ.mol^–1, of an element X are 870; 1800; 3000; 3600; 5900; 7000; 13200. What is X?

A. ₃₃As

B. ₃₅Br

C. ₅₃I

D. ₅₂Te

5) The atoms X and Y have the electronic configurations shown below:

X: 1s² 2s² sp⁶ 3s² 3p¹ 4s² 3d¹⁰

Y: 1s² 2s² 2p⁴

Which one of the following compounds are they likely to form?

A. XY

B. XY₂

C. X₂Y

D. X₂Y₃

6) The electronic configuration of A and B are shown below:

A: 1s² 2s² sp⁶ 3s² 3p¹ 4s²

B: 1s² 2s² sp⁶ 3s² 3p⁵

What is the bonding type of the compound formed?

A. Ionic bonding

B. Covalent bonding

C. Covalent double bonding

D. Covalent coordinate bonding

7) In absence of catalyst, ammonia burns in oxygen to produce steam and nitrogen. What is gas and its volume remaining when 100 cm³ of ammonia is burned in 125 cm³ of oxygen? (All volumes are being measured at the same temperature and pressure).

A. 33.3 cm³ of ammonia

B. 66.7 cm³ of ammonia

C. 50 cm³ of oxygen

D. 75 cm³ of oxygen

8) How many grams of sodium hydroxide do you need to add into 0.2 liters of magnesium chloride 1 M to produce 5.8 grams of settled magnesium hydroxide? (Ar H = 1, O = 16, Na = 23, Mg = 24)

A. 4 grams

B. 8 grams

C. 16 grams

D. 32 grams

9) Which solution will have the highest electricity conduction hence they all are 1 M?

A. HCl

B. HNO₃

C. H₂SO₄

D. H₃PO₄

Write your answer in dark blue or black pen.

Do not use highlighters, glue, or correction fluid on your answer sheet.

10) There are 3 elements: A, B, C. They three are in same period of period system.

A and B are metals.

B is an explosive metal when it is burned with some water.

C is a polyatomic element which is in right side-neighbor of A.

a) Determine reactivity of those elements with oxygen from the highest to the lowest.

b) Suggest a real atomic symbol for each element.

11) A number of aluminum is added into aqueous sulfuric acid. A half of volume of gas produced is passed through a nitrogen tube and heated to produce ammonia. The ammonia is measured and it shows 2.24 liters of volume. How many grams of initial aluminum should be added? (Ar Al = 27)

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General Chemistry (Part 1): Questions of Basic Stoichiometry

The following questions are about the basic stoichiometry. You may think why I wrote chemistry field again? It ain't a fun part of chemistry. Because I know many students get hard with stoichiometry so I put this field once again. But here are questions only. You need to read 'Let's Try to Learn Stoichiometry' at first and continue reading this part then. Here we go....

1. Calculate the empirical formula for a compound with the following percent composition: 23.29% of Mg, 30.72% of S and 45.99% of O.
   
   
2. A saturated hydrocarbon contains 82.66% of carbon. what is its empirical formula and molecular formula?
   
   
3. Calculate of the mass of chloride ion in 1.00 liter of each of the following solutions: a) 10% of NaCl (1.07 g/ml of density); b) 1.00 M NaCl; c) Calculate the molarity of the first solution.
   
   
4. Express the following gas pressures in atmospheres: a) 300 cmHg; b) 380 torr.
   
   
5. Calculate the molarity of each type of ion remaining in solution after 20.0 ml of 6.00 M hydrochloric acid is mixed with 50.0 ml of 2.00 M barium hydroxide.
   
   
6. How would one prepare exactly 300 ml of 5.00 M HCl solution by diluting sufficient 12.00 M stock solution.
   
   
7. Calculate the mass of CuS produced and the concentration of hydrogen ion produced by bubbling excess sulfuric acid into 1.00 liter of 0.10 M copper (II) chloride solution.
   
   
8. A refrigeration tank is holding 5.00 liters of freon gas (C₂C_l2F₂) at room temperature and 3.00 atm of pressure develop a leak. When the leak was discovered and repaired, the tank had lost 76.0 grams of the gas. What was the pressure of the gas remaining in the tank at the room temperature above?
   
   
9. In an auto engine with no pollution controls, about 5% of the fuel (assume 100% octane, C₈H₁₈) is unburnt. Calculate the relative masses of CO and C₈H₁₈ emitted in the exhaust gas. Calculate the relative volumes of these gases.
   
   
10. When 0.75 mole of a solid "C₈" and 2 moles of gaseous oxygen are heated in a seated vessel (bomb), completely using up the reactants and producing only one compound, it is found that when the temperature is reduced to the initial temperature, the contents of the vessel exhibit a pressure equal to half the original pressure . What conclusions can be drawn from these data about the product of the reaction?
    

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Somebody

Hope I ain't too spoiled to write these all. Because it shouldn't be here. I mean I shouldn't write such annoyed article if I'd say this as an article. Guess it seems a letter or a real diary which coming from my deepest heart.

I'm not having something trouble with me or even needing to make a decision as soon as possible which the ways I used to need somebody to talk to. I'm fine and everything is fine with me today. Just getting uncertain feeling which I can't describe with words. Seems I'm missing somebody who lives so far away and he may not be able to hear my heart beating. I wanna call him for about a second but seems it's something stupid to do as i have no any problems to share with. Because he'd like to listen to me when I had problems and with his heavy voice he'd cooled me down. That's the way to get much closer with him. I wasn't complaining something when I called him so but just wanna tell him that there's something wrong in my day.

But recently I didn't call him for months. I think he likely needs being alone nowadays and he doesn't want somebody else come into his life or suggest him an opinion. I think (these all are just what I'm thinking about his recent days) that he doesn't want somebody like me who sometimes gets mad easily, gets confused in a second, or uses bad words when I'm getting moody to be his companion. Hey God, if You knew that I'd love talking to him right now or just being with him as everything stays on its place, I thought You'd fly him to me and let me sit on his laps as what I did with my beloved father.

I hope he gonna come soon as I don't have so much patience to wait for his steps because I do want him to make everything more perfect. My daddy said that I should go there. He told me that I should struggle what I want and didn't let a piece of ice on my hands go vaporing. But it's not my way nor even his way.

Just having something inside heart which I can't tell here for somebody else that somebody out there has shotted my soul and it's sunk now. As he's always saying that this life ain't fair to somebody but there's no other way to face life but face it even I have no somebody with me.

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Americans in An Indonesian Woman's Eyes

I'll put my mind fairly not to generalize people by races (skin color, eyes color, hair color, etc) but by thoughts. I'd honestly like smart people with who I may have a nice chat, ask something or learn something new, because those people may know something what I don't know yet. So I think I'll have a new experience by gathering with such people. By using this view I won't hate a person because he/she has different skin color with me or even a specific language.

But I believe that many Indonesians hate Americans just because they're Americans. Many young Indonesians think America, which means Americans automatically, are bad. Why is it so? No any other reasons. Is that funny enough you think? The opposite opinions between Americans and Indonesians are also something funny. When I talk to my American friends, they will say that their country have given so much favor for Indonesia, automatically Indonesians. They'd say that USA had helped tsunami victims by building houses or streets.

My beloved American friend said, 'Don't they (Indonesians) think who the first helped Indonesia when that country got tsunami?' I won't say yes or even no because I do don't know the real fact there when tsunami attacked. But if you all visited Aceh where the lands was blown tsunami, you might think twice to agree with my friend. Based on the witnesses, the first people who had helped them were young generation of Indonesians. But they didn't take any camera with them to picture anything but just gave the favor for those victims. But then American volunteers or armies came there like a flood and helped them all. So, we shouldn't argue who were the first or the most helped those people.

Journalistic Students' Questions

I have a trick to blow the journalistic students' mind up to make them all more creative. It's a discuss. One session of us was to discuss about the country. It's our country, Indonesia. Then everything went to some other fields. We had discussed about some other countries and the most country which asked by students was the Unites State of America.

One journalistic student of mine asked me why Americans hated Muslims. She gave an example where America invaded Iraq and she thought that the only one reason was because the Iraqi people were Muslims. I tried to explain her that it's not because of religion only but the most reason to attack other country was the policy. And in this case was oil, indeed. But she argued me why American armies would rape Iraqi women if they came there just for a policy reason. And I couldn't answer her because I didn't want her get confused. But I explained her and other students that we wouldn't understand a policy game because it ain't our field. We all just needed to be good people and didn't do what those people did to the world, I explained them. We should spread love not hate for our beautiful earth, I said. None won't agree with my statement I think.

Another student asked me later why Americans hated Indonesians. Was it because most of us Muslims, she asked. I asked her back why she thought so. She told the class that she browsed in internet that US government had been participated in any chaos in some places in Indonesia. They had been trying to build some Christian places around Indonesia. They took hands to the Indonesian courts, they told the world that Indonesians were bad, she explained. She thought that the only reason of these all because Indonesia was the largest population Muslims in the whole world. Wow, it ain't a good view of Indonesian generations on American and Americans.

I told them all that Americans were like Indonesians and any other people. There are always two kinda men in this world, aren't they? They're good people and bad ones, I said. My students might browse wrong sites which blaming Americans or taking people on hot fire by reporting wrong-bad news. I did explain to my students that Americans were kind enough but we couldn't think what they're thinking if we didn't put our mind set into theirs. Good people -who's ever they are- would appreciate others when others appreciated them. But we couldn't make all senses as one as God had created us as different races with different natural resources. You might have same thoughts with foreigners but opposite from your citizens, but it didn't mean you're a foreigner in your native country. You're still an Indonesian but open minded one because you could open your mind to take other different views in your mind. These all which I explained them.

Indonesia Is Not A Muslim Country!

One Pakistani friend of mine asked me why Indonesians, especially me, didn't wanna proclaim that Indonesia was a Muslims country. For me, it's the best way not to accept Indonesia as a Muslims country. Because this country is too heterogeneous in religion, in races, in languages, and many more. The most Americans and Europeans think that Indonesia is similar to any Arabians countries. It's a wrong view of course. But yes, there are so many Arabians here as any where in this earth. They spread any where, however.

It's easy to explain this point. A jilbab which covering a woman hair is not as close as a hijab for Arabian women or Indian women's hijab called burkah. Indonesian women will wear a specific jilbab which used to for Asian Muslim women. A burkah will cover all body of a woman but a jilbab just cover hair. Many Indonesian Muslim women just cover their hair but let their neck opened. They can wear accessories around neck or legs, as Arabian women can't. There are a few parts of women will be forced to hide behind the jilbab especially if the father had Arabian blood.
In Indonesia, the jilbab isn't synonym with Islam but women would like to wear so they wear. But so many other Muslim women don't wanna wear such cloth, they're free not to wear it.

Indonesian women can apply any fields as Indonesian men can do. They also can divorce their partner as Arabian women can not. They can go for fun with their male friends and none can hold them on but they themselves. They can go to mosque or somewhere every time if they wanted. They can take an arranged marriage if they liked but they also can choose with who they like to live. They can go anywhere without a partner even at midnite. But Indonesian women proud of themselves as a part of Asian women which have a specific character compared a free life style of westerns or a restricted life style of Arabians.

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What's Goin On The International Program?

I don't know where I should put at this question. Is it for the government? Is it for the principals? Or for the students themselves? But I know for sure that the question ain't for teachers who teach any international classes. Nowadays the Indonesian government c.q. national education department has been releasing a prestige program called national schools with international standard.

One of those schools is SMA Plus Negeri 17 Palembang where I've been teaching. At first time the school components heard this news, they were surprised and so proud that the government sufficiently could accept some good schools with good human resources by giving them a special name of the school. For me personally, it doesn't influence me at all in my work but by having such title I know I must work harder, much harder to keep having such prestige title. As I was one of teachers only, I thought I just could teach and transfer lessons for my students as well as before everything changed because I'd done the best of me in my work.

What Is It Exactly?

Well, not easy to explain it much because I've never been one of international teachers committees but I'll try to tell you what I've known from any meetings and papers which they offered me. National schools with international standard will adopt and use any international curriculum, such as O-level, IGCSE, AS-level and A-level. They actually have no different with any national curriculum for SMA but the differences are only when and how deep the subjects will be learned. For the first international standard schools, there are only 5 subjects will be taught, are English, Math, Physics, Chemistry, and Biology. So they are only which will be tested, based on those international programs.

There's a little bit different to learn natural sciences here in Indonesia compared with other countries. Indonesian students may be 'expert' in theory but not in laboratory as it's what an international curriculum wants. My X grade students just had had one laboratory experiment in one semester (about 6 months)! It ain't because I'm too lazy to prepare any laboratory tools but for some other reasons. Our school has one person to help any chemistry teachers to do any experiments for their classes. But this one ain't a chemistry graduated person. She graduated from an IT academia and also teaches IT subject in our school. She may be able to learn chemistry tools or help chemistry teachers to keep cleaning the laboratory but she for sure will be so slow to learn chemistry as a subject. She can do nothing to make any solutions which will be needed in any chemistry experiments.

Actually I teach 3 classes only as I've been taking a higher education in chemical engineering master program. Because I must go to study on Monday till Thursday and teach on Friday-Saturday only, so I have classes in all of the time of school days. Can you imagine how I must prepare anything before asking students to do an experiment at laboratory? Will I have time? Well, of course if the laboratory would be opened for about 24 hours so I might prepare them all when others were taking rest!

When two friends and I attended a CIE workshop 2 years ago we had talked that there's no other way to run the program better but worked harder. One friend said, 'We've worked harder than any other teachers in other schools but now it's not enough. We must give the hardest effort of us.' I agreed with him.

But today it seems that it stops working. All efforts which we'd done long time ago looking meaningless now. The last meeting where I'd attended with some other teachers of international classes and facilitators, looked funny for me. Because the top leaders and also the front desk of facilitators said that we wouldn't work with CIE curriculum but we would teach international classes by using national curriculum and there's no any guarantee for students to take an international certificate. We at least just would try to develop international characters among teachers and students, and would flow an international atmosphere around classes. I'd tried to explain that it wouldn't work. It's impossible to have twenties students to join a new international class and pay more but they will get nothing. They can't improve their English ability because their teachers shouldn't speak English fully in class to decrease misunderstanding between students and the teacher. English can be used regularly but not fully. But later in any examinations, the teachers were asked to write their questions in English. No wonder then why most international students cant answer their examination well because of the language. What poor students!

What Should We Do?

The most important thing of all is a commitment! Good commitments from the principal, students, their parents, teachers, and facilitators. We may list the government out because of the school autonomy which we've hold on.

The school should have a fixed program and spread it to all school components. The first year it will be among international students and teachers only but later it should be the school atmosphere.

The school should prepare all things of international program needs such as the completed laboratories, human resources, the class room needs and so on.

The schools c.q the frontman of the international program, should contact CIE to sign any agreement and soon they will tell us what we should do and how to run the program. Asking the expert will be much better than working alone in the dark forest.

Teachers should take any English course to improve their English ability while they keep teaching. The TOEFL or TOEIC tests or scores had been run and they showed where the teachers should be. I won't talk about that kinda tests not because I don't take any yet, but there's no any other way to teach your subject in English except you yourself understand English well. It may look too late but at least we'll show our hard work.

International students should speak English in the 5 subjects' times. Once they don't know the word, they'll ask other students or the teacher and it will be easier for them to remember the word and its meaning. The key of English disable is too lazy to check a dictionary.

The school management should be opened with the teachers and students about the program. Hiding it all won't help at all. The students may take their due, their parents may ask where their kids will go further, and the teachers can know what they possible do to develop their teaching skills. The school should let these components to help their work because the result is for all components, not just for the school management. Having some opinions from some heads is much better than one opinion from one head.

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Let's Try to Learn Stoichiometry

You may think it's funny for you when you check the tittle of this post. 'Is it a view? Why don't you leave this post and let other blogs to create this?' you may ask me. Let's me explain. As I'm a chemistry teacher and I've created this blog for my students especially so it's no wonder why I create an explanation of lessons as a view. I hope such posts will be used by other students of other senior high schools especially in Indonesia. Indonesia has a specific curriculum called national curriculum which adopts O-level curriculum and A-level curriculum and adds some new fields for X, XI, and XII grades.

As I've been teaching in a senior high school with plus curriculum for about 11 years, I'm experienced enough to know what kinda chemistry problems for Indonesian students. I hope they may find some solutions for their chemistry problems here. This post will explain the stoichiometry concept only because it's commonly the hardest part of chemistry for Indonesian students but it will relate with many parts of chemistry and it's the basic of chemistry calculations.


What's the basic of Stoichiometry?

The basic concept is mathematics. Once you understand math well you can learn stoichiometry easier for sure.
To make this field being narrower, here are the equations you need to get closer with.

General equations

Molar mass of an atom is equal to the molecular weight of the given atom.
Molar mass of a molecule is equal to the molecular weight of the given molecule.

For all conditions

• mass = the number of moles x molar mass

m = n . mm

• the number of molecules = the number of moles X Avogadro number

X = n . L

• the number of moles = Molarity x Volume

n = M. V

For specific conditions

• At standard temperature and pressure
  

Volume = the number of moles x Molar Volume
V = n . Vm
V = n x 22.4 liter/moles

• At specific temperature and pressure
  

P V = n R T
where P = pressure (atm)
n = the number of moles
R = the ideal gas constant (0.082 liter.atm/mol.K)
V1 . n2 = V2 . n1
where V1 and V2 = volume of gases
n1 and n2 = the number of moles of gases

What are steps to solve a stoichiometry problem?

Here are the steps and do them in the manner:

• Read and understand the problem and list the known stuffs. Don't mention the earlier word of a given number but the later one of the given number.
  

Here's an example of a part of an unfinished question:
What is the number of mass of 2.24 liters of ammonia....

So the known stuff is 'volume of ammonia or V' not 'the mass of ammonia or m'

• Determine if the problem needed a chemical equation or not. Write a balanced chemical equation if it needed it.
  Go to the next point if it didn't.

Example:

200 mL of nitrogen gas is flown into a tube of 200 mL of hydrogen gas and they are
heated.

In this case, you need to write a chemical equation and then balance it. Just use a balanced
equation to solve any chemistry problems.

• List the equation(s) which you need to solve by using the known stuffs. Circle the known numbers and leave the unknown ones. Solve equations as many as possible.
  

• Add the new known number(s) into the equation(s) which you must solve.
  
• Convert the equation into the asked stuff in the problem and run it.
  
• You just solve a chemistry problem!
  

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THEY WERE JUST BIG A**HOLES!

Don't think I'm bad when you read the title above. It's what I said when I checked my forum today and I found out so many porn pictures and links over there. Too bad that I didn't check it for about 2 weeks. I just hope none had seen those f****** pictures because they did go to a wrong forum. My forum was created to relate my students, my fellow chemistry teachers, and me. It's the place where we all may write something about chemistry or ask and get answer of chemistry fields or other fields which relate with chemistry. But it's so bad that those f****** people came over there and put many such pictures. What the f*** were they thinking when they sent those all to my forum? I really got mad at that time.
I didn't know where I should run my words to blame those people. If I'd find them out I'd kick their big assholes for sure! I do hate such people who just put sex in their emptied mind! They may do whatever they wanna do but why they must send all bad stuffs to an education forum?! They must read my posts and they shouldn't act bad. They maybe good f***er but why they need to show such vulgar porn to teens as my students are under 16 years old? they're dumb a**holes!

HOW DID?

It happened because I managed my 3 posts open for public. I did it because a few students and fellow teachers asked me not put a restriction as I didn't check my forum regularly. I thought what if spam and random sites came? But I thought then it'd be okay as it's an education forum. The adults sites -don't care who the admins- will think twice to responds such forum. It will look so funny to put porn sites in any eduction forum or sites I think. But the hell it happened! They must be jumpin' to the hell!

I was so shocked seeing such porn pictures in my forum. They ain't not naked pictures only but people over there showed many styles to reader how to f*** and some women -old or young- were doing 'something' with their vagina. First I thought I just typed a wrong site address so I linked back. Then I deleted them all with unhappy feeling while I was thinking if one or some students had linked them. As I was deleting them, a friend came for a chat by messenger. After saying hi, I sent 'shiitttt' to him. He asked me what had been happening to me to say such word for him. I explained him with many shit-f*** words and typed the explanation so fast.


WARNING!

To all students who don't understand how bad (as I didn't!) people out there, I warn you all to be more careful to open your sites for public because some parts of the world don't understand how to proud others' privacy. As I'd ever said to my friend that there were two kinda people who bad or good. The bad ones may go to your site and do what they do to me. Anyway it's an expensive experience for me.

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Waste Time

What will take your time much? Watching on TV, reading newspapers, chatting with neighbors, or something else? I run mine now as I have no much spare time to do such things above. You know, jobs, kid, students are my perfect reasons to say so. If I might have a little spare time, I'd spend it here in internet. Will it waste my time? First I don't think so but I know I do then.

Imagine this....
I must go to my university to study for 4 days a week till morning to evening. Then at night I'll spend time with students and kid to check how good their day or help them a little in their home works or lessons or just even chat with them. It will finish after 10 pm of each day. Then the time for myself to take care of myself or just look on the mirror to check my face getting older day by day:) No, it's not time for doing such cared-myself, but it's time to check emails. As you all do, I have some email addresses separating them based on who will receive emails. Because I have some works, so I need some emails to get the best what kinda work I'm talking about or what kinda people I'm sending emails. So I have emails for personal work, personal people, and office with its own jobs. As I have more than one email addresses, it will be impossible to check them all just in a few seconds. So I'll try to spend so much time which I should pay for myself, here in internet and to check emails and reply some important emails and do what work emails asking me to do such as edit work papers, edit stories, etc. etc. I usually come to post something into my blogs or forum. I have no much time to edit them as I've just learned to build a blog. A website where I've been joining will be edited by my friends. I'll just post. Having my own blogs giving me many advantages. As I used to write a diary since I was in elementary school. It started with a thick diary, pretty heavy books and a locked file then. Now I'm here using internet to write all things not just my daily activity but also education and human being issues, the things which filling my head fully. I up till now can't control myself not to write besides paid stories. It doesn't take much time but still it needs time, does it?
Without checking the clock, I'll know that early morning is coming. And with my tired body, I won't face the mirror but just lay body on bed. Don't you think I've wasted my time here then?

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Why Can't They Face Me?

Today was a fu*king bad day for me. It had been after my staff (say it) told me that he had been asked to write an agreement about his job. It's not because I don't like his job -not at all, I like him. He's a good young guy- but because he's almost taken my responsibility as it ain't his job. It might be so hard for him. It's really unfair for him. He's just a staff who will do what we've agreed about the dormitory's rules. But me, the top leader in this case, who they should ask to sign any agreement about our job, not him, because it's my responsibility.

I know why some office mates did so for him. They might think he wouldn't report me about it because of my busy days. They're really wrong! They thought they could say something wrong about my job in any meeting where I couldn't attend. They're really wrong! My staffs (say it) will report me everything about our job and what people out there talk about it. But I'm wondering why they can't ask me about it as I will be at school on every Friday or Saturday? Did they think that they could face me without me around? Don't say you're facing someone if he/she couldn't hear your voice. That's what they're doing to me.

Why do they need to say something bad about my work? I didn't take hands for their works, never been interested to see theirs. If i thought there's something wrong with their works because theirs might effect my works, I'd say it forward to them. I won't hide my words and say something bad behind them. It's not my way. What the hell were they thinking about when they did it? Why can't they face me as I'm around them? Because they don't do their works well but I do? That's a shit reason to say something bad about people. They're fu*king rot!

Sorry if I used such bad words here. I don't get mad but I hate people who like playing an unfair game. That's all. They're just such looser in my eyes, not more than it!

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I Hate Chemistry

It's a specific title of my unfinished-book, but here I don't wanna talk about it. You must be wondering as I'm a chemistry teacher but why I title it so? I loved chemistry but less than physic or math when I was at school. I just liked stoichiometry as the calculation part of chemistry field. It includes general mole concepts, buffer calculations, hydrolysis components, and all things of basic calculation in chemistry. Because I loved math so much, no wonder I loved stoichiometry only at young age.

But nowadays I know how to learn easily chemistry. When we wanna learn something new, we should find the key first and then the door will open widely, right? Here are the keys.
First, use your logical math to replace chemistry problems. It's easier then to solve it. For example, it says a student adds a number of mixture of two kinda metals into a HCl solution, the new mixture releases 1 liter of hydrogen gas at rtp, and you must calculate how many grams of each metal. For solving the given problem, you should know which metal will react or if they two will react with HCl solution. If one metal only will react, it will be easier to solve it because you can assume that all 1 liter of hydrogen gas as the product are produced from one reaction only. Hence another one doesn't react with HCl, it doesn't produce hydrogen gas. Base on the given reaction, you can determine the mole number of hydrogen gas and also other substances. Once you've known the number of moles, you can calculate all things by converting the number of moles into the given questions.
If the two metals will react with HCl solution, just think that the hydrogen gas is produced by two reactions between metals and HCl solution. Hence we have two reactions, we need to assume that we have X liter of hydrogen gas from one reaction and (1 - X) liter of hydrogen gas from another one. You further must convert them into the number of moles of each hydrogen. By that way, you can calculate the number of moles of other substances of each reaction. So you can go further to solve the problem.

Second, you must put the problem as it's your daily activity only. For example, when you're asked to prepare 1 liter of potassium chloride solution1 M, put the job as your mommy is asking you to prepare a glass of water with some sugar. You'll run some questions. How sweet is the solution your mum want you to prepare? What do you do first, add water or sugar in the glass? By that way you can go to calculate the number of mass of potassium chloride. Find a specific relation between molarity (as it's asked) and mass (as it's the real thing you have at laboratory). Convert molarity into mass. Then do your job because your mum has been waiting for her water!

Third, put chemistry as a real case in your life. So no other way you may learn chemistry easily and clearly but do experiments as it's impossible to face a hard life if you're just sitting alone in your own emptied-room. For this case, I can't suggest you something as we all have known what kinda laboratory we have at our school. And about how poor laboratories in national schools in our country, we should run this question at the government. I myself don't wanna place you in a fire seat in this case but you can make your comment here freely. It's our space to speak freedom as our foundations had proclaimed our independence day years ago. If there's no something wrong in our country, people should be able to speak freely, right?

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Why Do I Love Axl?

I loved Axl. I love Axl. And I'll love Axl. When he was the most number popular guys in this earth, it ain't something special if you liked or even been in love with him. He was so handsome, rock, famous, sexy, he had a very cute smile, he had extreme-powerful real rock vocal, he could run his fingers on the piano's keyboards and play a romantic song, he could change his face in minutes from a wild rock guy became a pin up-faced young guy, he could jump on the brutal fans, he might fall on stage but kept singing, over all things, he had his own rules.

Women would tattoo their sensitive body space with Axl's smile or just his name or might some words such as 'I love Axl', etc. They would put clothes off for him to show how much they loved him. They would say 'hey Axl, I love you', or so on to show him that they were his big fans. But when he's getting older and loosing his powerful, many big fans had been leaving him. As he's an alcohol-cigarette addicted-person, magazines just reported his assaults. His women also reported him at court to show the world how bad he was as their man. How could the one who loved him do that for him? He might be not a perfect man as he got his bad childhood sexuality from his step father, his women should recover him and take care of him. He might be an anger young man but they should understand his bad past before deciding to take a part in his life. What the hell did those women want from him? What the hell did they concern for? His popularity, his wealth, or his good shape only? What a poor Axl!

I do love Axl not just because he's a great frontman (no need to argue that he was!) but he is a nice one personally. He told the world how an Axl might go wrong when he got people threw him out with the bottles or coins. He just wanna perform them but they put throwing him. It's the hell. I couldn't imagine that I'd do better than what he had been showing us if I did get same life as he had. He did great jobs as a singer, as a young guy, or even as a son. Imagine this, if your father did something bad sexuality for you, would you mention him to the world that he's a great man or you'd like to keep any comment about him just for yourself? And if the world forced you to say a word about him, would you say he's a great father or just say what he did for you? Be honest for yourself and you know that he had done the best he had.

But as you all have your opinion about him today, I do agree with you all. He has come to wrong people to make over his angel face onto a weird one and I do do not like his African-hair style today. I can't lie that he has a little lower range voice today than he had at twenties. But about his voice, I think it's normal because he gets older, doesn't he? Could your parents keep their melodious young voice when they're old? Could your grandpa's face be as cute as his young face? Nobody could against natural rules of getting old, right? We did take that Guns n Roses wouldn't be as rock as it had been if the frontman wasn't Axl. I won't say GnR is just for Axl but... Could you imagine GnR on stage playing 'November Rain' without Axl as the singer? Would you attend an old GnR performance without Axl was among other members? I bet for sure that you would not.

I sufficiently hope Axl would show much better performances comparing with his 2005' performances. He had his golden era and he would keep having such great time. I like 'Better' and I think it's Axl, still. I'm still looking forward the Chinese Democracy great album. Today I still love Axl as much as I had before. He is the best lead rocker for me and still be the one up till now. Nobody can replace him. Nobody.

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My Guys

I gonna rank them in the manner of the most of taking a part in my life today.
The first guy, actually a young guy, is the first guy who I love so much in this planet. He's my beloved son. I had asked him if I could write his name on this paper but he -as usual he does without telling me the reason- ignored. To appreciate him, I let him stand on his view. He's a teen but I still accept him a baby boy many times. I'll be worried so much when he is back home late or when he stays at his friend's home on holiday. I'll call him many times (it can be 2-3 times in one hour) and ask him if he had take lunch, dinner, praying, etc. When I tell this to my friends, they say it's what other mums always do. But I think it's sometimes too funny to do as I know where he stays and he'll feed himself if he's hungry, right? I may be just a mum who thinks she's the most popular person for her children :) Or I don't wanna see him growing up (no, it's not true!)?

Sometimes I think I'm not a good mum but he's always saying (it's not when we two are arguing, indeed) I'm the best mum for him. He's wondering why his friends' mums can't take what his friends will like to have or to do or to watch because their mums will tell them what they should have, wear, or even sing. Normally, we two sometimes have different taste about music as he likes pop+punk and I'd rather rock. He likes to see Pierre Simple Plan singing 'jump' as he's jumping on stage but for me it's something stupid. Once I told him about what I was thinking about the singer but he explained me why he should do so and he finally said it's so cool (with a long so word). Then I'll like to choose to appreciate what he likes or not and if i think it's funny or stupid, i will ask him and i will listen to explanation he says. By this way he won't argue me why I do love Guns n Roses because Axl Rose is too old as a rock band- frontman for him. He says no any friends of him have a mum like me who like rock so much hahahahaha.... He says their mums would like to watch a tele-opera than a news broadcast, would like listening to a classic-pop music than a hard rock, would like to read a family tabloid than a political newspaper, would like to go shopping than to read an education heavy book, etc. etc. He says I sometimes look like a guy than a woman (Oh, my God!). When I asked him if he would like me to change my style, he said,' Noooooooo, please!' Is not that funny enough remembering he has compared me with his friends' mums and his long explanation describes I'm an 'unusual' mum? For me, it's a good view of him, of course, making me need not to change how to talk, how to walk, how to smile :)

The second guy is a very good friend, someone special, maybe the best male friend I've ever have. He's the first person who I'd like to call when I have a good news and need to share with, when I have a bad day and need a shoulder to rely on, when I need an opinion about something which I should decide soon and he's the first person who I'd like to give a special b-day gift. Badly, he lives so far away and can't ask him to visit me as many as I want. But as a proverb says a distance isn't a problem when people's hearts are close each other.

The third guy is a young guy friend. We met years ago and nowadays he leaves his native country to work. For me, he's a good Muslim with who I'll ask more about faith and Islamic rules. I have no any feeling with him but as a good friend only to share about religion. He gonna marry a pretty young girl soon. I'm happy for him and his girlfriend. I'd written one of his story life in 'The Foolish Indian'.

The fourth guy is my daddy. I should rank him in the third place but I rarely talk to him nowadays (Our last meeting was one year ago) even his words still effect my life style. He's the wisest Hindu guy for me. His words has never run rude, can never hurt every single man, but can deeply touch every soul as he has a very huge love.

The fifth place is for another good friend. He's a logical guy who has burnt his unwise words in his past. He had a very bad past but he could stand up and had been building his new life with his own hands. I've learned so much from his days and been much stronger after listening to his life story.

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The Foolish Indian

Sorry to all, I can't publish this story any longer because the guy in this story asked me to save it as a draft only and he did mind others read his story. He had agreed with me to publish his story at first but then he changed his mind. I'm so sorry for this uncomfortable.

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Indonesian Guys in Comparison

I run into this field because I get closer to males than females. I had never had a best female friend at young age because I thought they're too spoiled, easily to cry, and many couldn't do the easiest guys' job. I'm still curious up till now why females like crying with or without pain. I think they used to such behave to get attention. It's such crap I think.
But today I can't give a fair view about guys because of my years background. But life never been fair, right? So it's ok to keep my view and write it here, isn't it?
In my opinion, Indonesian guys today can't do a fair play with women. Here are the reasons.

First, they think their job are harder than women's jobs. While they're going to office, their wives just stay at home, go shopping, go for manicure-pedicure, chat with their uncreative friends whole days, watch plastic-soap opera (plastic? Yes. Many female artists cover their face and body by plastic:) sorry!) If their wives were employees, Indonesian guys keep thinking their job is higher and more useful than their wives' job. Don't need to compare the salary if you didn't wanna have them bad mad.

Second, they act as a boss at home. How many Indonesian guys would like giving hands to handle home jobs? If he had visited any countries, it's then no wonder to have such free thought. But now I'm talking about regular Indonesian guys. When his wife just gives him a sweet baby and should be in bed longer, he'd like to prepare a maid to serve her than he himself takes care of her. He'd like to give a classic reason that he doesn't know how to take care a new mum even the mum is his wife.

Third, they will use their religion argument to keep their wives under their feet. I'm not arguing how good Islamic laws set women up but guys would prefer taking those laws for their benefits only than doing what Islam ask them.

And Indonesian guys today would like having more than one wife to keep them well but they'd be jealous to see their wife get even a nice smile from another guy. It's pathetic, however. A woman is just a woman. She won't like to share her guy with her competitors. I don't mind a guy to have more than one wife even I'm not a polygamy supporter but he shouldn't take it if it ain't a better way for him and his family and he shouldn't be egoist thinking his needs (sexuality) only and he should use his brain millions before taking a new remarriage.

Once again I tell you all that I'm just writing my view. If you'd like to argue, you may run it on. You can keep your opinion for you and I'll keep my opinion for me. It's fair enough, isn't it?

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